FIC: Eyes Of The Soul

[tkheaven]

cool I like the whole shining of the fonts. I'm still learning how to get this stuff together.. let me know which ones you like the most and I'll get nice pic of willow.

Tk's new and improved "GrrArgg"

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Tara was similarly riveted, her body on slow burn as Willow's lips parted and her mouth opened, the food slipping inside and being consumed. Never in her life had Tara ever wanted to be a chicken casserole so badly...Later that night..."It's good to be a chicken casserole," Tara murmured, before passing out. ~ Answering Darkness by Sassette

[Blue77]

Hey Jen,



Loved the updates, this is a great fic!! Love your matching avatar btw, that is very cool!!! Sorry I'm not a part of this anymore with my time restraints but I'm still very much a fan, so I'll keep on reading!!



Hope to see more soon



Blue

"She should have died hereafter: There would have been a time for such a word ...

...it is a tale, told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing."

Shakespeare/Macbeth

[Jennpurr]

tk,



I liked the font thing, too. It's cool.



I like the BB and CC ones the best. Do you think you could make them the 65x65 size as well? I really appreciate you going to all this trouble. Thank you, so much. I'll look forward to seeing how you add Willow in there.



Sam,



Hiya, girl. How are ya? Long time no hear. OH... I'm sorry for your loss, Sam. Are you doing okay?? **HUGS** I'm here if you need anything, k?



And I'm glad you liked the updates. Thanks for reading them. Hey, don't worry about the beta thing. I completely understand. It's okay. Thank you for helping with the parts you did help with. And I'll look forward to your feedback.



And thanks, about the avatar. I think it's cool, too.



You take care, k? Remember, if you need to talk or anything, you know where to find me.



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

[WillowsSlave]

Hi! Howareya! *Waves big panther paw* I realy realy realy love this story! It kinda makes me want to meet Kittie Tara and me and her can go patrol with Buffy and Willow and kick vampy ( and Rack *growl*) buns!! *Crouches on the ground, and flattens ears and fluffs up tail to look intimadating* Gerrr! Come on you big meanie!! *sits back and gives a kittie grin* Update soon! I love this!!



*please edit your sig, it's too big, read the FAQ

Edited by: Warduke at: 7/15/02 8:14:59 am

[Jennpurr]

WillowsSlave,



Awww, why thank you. I'm glad you're enjoying my weird little mind.



Hee... that WOULD look intimidating.



And I'm working on an update now. I've got half of it written. It will be posted soon, I promise. Thanks again for reading.





You all are just great. I love you, guys. You make my heart sing.



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

Edited by: Jennpurr  at: 7/4/02 9:29:55 pm

[01Danie]

WillowsSlave,



Blame me...I'm the slowpoke one...



Jenn just exudes brilliance at a rabbits pace, and I'm the slow (but cute...gotta remember the cute) tortise...



Need a muse booster...hmm, in pig latin.... ..... nudeskay beachay...

[Jennpurr]

Danie,



You're gonna make me



And you're not the slow one. That would be me. My muse is too slow. Damn thing. Oh well... Thanks for putting up with it.



And that sounds like, "A nude beach is okay." Hee.... if it involves the girls, it is.



Danie, gosh darnit. Look what you've gone and done. Nude images of those two are now dancing around in my head. It's almost as good as them covered in chocolate. Oh crap... you are just plain evil and I have to go now... to um... well... I have to go away.



Hee... you know I loves ya, my friend.



Jen







Title: Eyes Of The Soul

Author: Jennifer

Copyright © 2002 by Jennifer Johnson

Disclaimers: All characters belong to Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy. This is solely for my entertainment. Please do not copyright this story.

Rating: A for angst







Eyes Of The Soul: Chapter 9/?

By: Jennifer







Buffy stood observing her best friend. She was still slumped over, clinging to the lifeless Jaguar in her arms. The Slayer's own tears trickling down her cheeks, due to the events that had transpired. She didn’t know what to do. There was nothing she could possibly do to comfort Willow.



Giles, silently, had been playing the events through his mind. They didn’t all seem to make sense, but he couldn’t put his finger on where the abnormality of their occurrence lay. There was just something nagging at him, saying, “Look deeper. You’ll find the answers.”



He was brought out of his reverie when his eyes caught sight of his Slayer’s shoulders. They were trembling. He knew Buffy wouldn’t be able to keep her cool for very much longer. Pensively, he stepped forward and squeezed her shoulder, once reaching the girl.



“Buffy… why don’t we remove Rack from here and leave Willow alone for awhile?”



With teary eyes, Buffy turned to meet Giles. “Yeah… I so need to get him away from here. I’m just sorry he’s already dead,” she said coldly.



“Now Buffy, that’s no way to… well, I take that back. You do have a point.” The Watcher’s voice was somewhat bitter.



Xander squeezed Anya’s hand, as he removed himself from the porch to see what his friends were going to do. He and Anya had remained glued in place by the front door, not really wanting to get in the way. The carpenter didn’t think he could be of any help anyhow. All he would have done was probably get him self knocked out or worse, killed in the process.



“Xander,” Buffy greeted the young man when he approached. “Will you help me? I want to get Rack out of here. Anya can stay with Will and watch for nasties.”



“Sure. Whatever you need,” he hesitated before continuing. “… But what about…” All he could do was point at the feline.



Buffy looked over at Willow again. She was still a wreck. Currently the redhead was rocking back and forth, crying. “Um… Willow will be okay, I think. She just needs this time. We should let her have it.”



“I agree,” Giles reaffirmed, somewhat defeatist.



“Let’s do this then.” The Slayer, being the strength of the group, walked over to the remains of the Warlock and tried to think of the best strategy to remove him. After blowing out a long breath, she knelt down with her knees and began to deposit the man over her shoulder.



Xander removed his car keys from his pocket and ran to his vehicle to get it started. Once Rack was secured in the trunk, the three of them left the scene.



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Anya didn’t know what she could possibly do now. She didn’t understand any of this. Once again, someone had died for no good reason. The ex-demon remembered back to when Joyce had died. Anya had finally come to reason with her head.



‘Joyce died of natural causes,’ the blonde had told herself. ‘I still don’t get why she can’t just get back into her body. It’s just lying there.’



In the demon world that was plausible. However, this situation was different. Joyce was a human and her time had come.



“Stupid humans,” Anya muttered and sat down. All she could do was sit and wait.



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Willow sniffled and lifted her head. Her eyes were now all bloodshot and swollen from her tears. As she petted the cat’s head, she thought back to all of her times with Tara. The day they met, she remembered it like it happened the day before.



Tara was her angel, her love, and the other half of her soul. She knew from the start that they were destined to be together. It was like something that had been foretold by all the powers known to man. And there would never be a day that went by during which Willow wouldn’t love the other girl in all ways possible.



“Oh Tara… why did you do that? Why did you leave me,” she sobbed. Fresh tears erupted from her eyes and slithered to freedom. Once again, she fell over and wrapped her arms around the Jaguar.



Then, out of nowhere, a sudden sense of peace washed over Willow, filling her soul. It was heartwarming. She had never felt it before. Well, that wasn’t necessarily true. She had known this kind of peace before, but there was only one possible way she could feel it. Tara, but she was gone. Wasn’t she?



“No…” Willow whispered to her thoughts. Lifting her head, she wiped away the salty residue on her cheeks. Looking down, she peered on at the cat. It didn’t appear to be breathing, so how was her peace even remotely comprehendible?



“Tara,” she whispered again. “Where are you?”



The air around her was silent, still; the only movement being that of her own ribcage, rising and falling along with her beating heart.



Without thinking, she opened her mind. ‘Tara, baby, I don’t understand. You’re gone, so how come I can feel you here?’ She shut her eyes and shivered. As soon as the words left her head, she felt them connect.



‘No. I’m not, sweetie. I’m not gone, but I need your help.’



The redhead’s mind was awoken by these words. She bolted upright and almost stumbled backwards. The cat was forgotten as it lay on the ground. The calming presence again found its way into Willow’s heart and warmed her from within.



“Tara?” She asked, frightened. Willow remained still in her standing position. Her eyes searching all around and landing on everything but what they were in need of. “Where are you?”



The hacker gasped when she saw one of the Jaguar’s paws kick out, with a muscle spasm. She almost screamed, but somehow was able to stop the noise from coming forth.



Treading forward, she dropped to her knees beside the cat. Her hands reached out and lifted its head. Green eyes met her own. These eyes were glassed over though; they were hollow. No life was present in them.



Gasping, Willow quickly pulled her hands away and stared at the cat. “Green… but your eyes are blue. Tara, your eyes are blue. How come th…” The redhead’s eyes went wide and she jumped to her feet. The truth hit her full strength.



“Amy?” Her voice squeaked. “What is going on?” She practically screamed.



*****





TBC...



Sorry for the evil cliffhanger, guys. I promise to have more soon. Hopefully before the weekend is over. I promise, this will be the last cliff, cliffhanger. Does that make sense?? I hope so.



Thanks for reading.



Enjoy!



More answers in the next update.



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

Edited by: Jennpurr  at: 7/5/02 7:43:36 pm

[ExtraFlameyWT]

Hey Jen! Great update...but why do you leave us hanging like that? I'm sad now..I need to be cheered up.



Aimee

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"Pope John Paul today confirmed his opposition to gay marriages, said they're unnatural. Gay marriage is unnatural. Then he put on a pointy hat, his dress, and returned to never having sex at all." -Bill Maher

[Jennpurr]

Awww... I'm sorry, Aimee. I know I left you hanging, but I promise not to do it again. If I do leave any chapters hanging from now on, it will be on a happy note.



Hmmm... how to cheer Aimee up.



Will smoochies work? I promise some of those in the next update or the one after, too. Maybe in both.



Thanks for reading, girly. I'm glad you liked the update. Sorry it's so short. More soon, I can promise you that.



Loves ya,

Jen



Edited to add:



I looked for ya, to say hello, but you weren't there. So... have a good night and I'll ttyl, k?

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

Edited by: Jennpurr  at: 7/6/02 11:33:57 am

[fidds]

great update

but bad cliffhanger

can't wait to see what happens next



*Hannah*

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I just needed someone to talk to, you were just too busy with yourself, you were never there for me to express how i felt ,i just stuffed it down- *STAIND -FADE*

[tkheaven]

Great update Jennpurr, yah, a weeeee bit cliffhanger-y...so uh, I hope we get to read more updates soon...in the meantime... *tk pulls herself up to stand as her foot nearly slips off the edge of the cliff...she dusts herself off..

Tk's new and improved "GrrArgg"

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Tara was similarly riveted, her body on slow burn as Willow's lips parted and her mouth opened, the food slipping inside and being consumed. Never in her life had Tara ever wanted to be a chicken casserole so badly...Later that night..."It's good to be a chicken casserole," Tara murmured, before passing out. ~ Answering Darkness by Sassette

[ExtraFlameyWT]

Woo Hoo! Smoochies! That will definitely cheer me up!



Yeah, sorry about not being there...it's kind of a long story. I'll talk to you later though!



Aimee

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"Pope John Paul today confirmed his opposition to gay marriages, said they're unnatural. Gay marriage is unnatural. Then he put on a pointy hat, his dress, and returned to never having sex at all." -Bill Maher

[Magrat70]

Finally caught up with your fic (and what a pleasant way to spend this afternoon)



This is fantastic, I loved the imagery of Tara as gentle big cat. Fabulous story



Edited to add: Loved the twist with Amy and Rack because I did think that I could never have imagined Amy that evil; so very clever



More please



Love

Wendy

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

Edited by: Magrat70 at: 7/6/02 11:39:51 am

[Triscuit7]

Cool, very cool. I finally caught up and Jennpurr this is tres good.



Angsty but I can deal (if only because I know Willow and Tara will be safe with you) - you made me cry, which BTW is a good thing since it tends to be my method of deciding whether I'm enjoying the read or not. So happy tears.....



I really liked the Buffy bits. Buffy in conflict, in love with 2 women - how could you not love them both?



Tara/jaguar in a cage - I'm claustrophobic so that was a wee bit unsettling; I didn't dwell much there.



Giles, Anya, Xander - all great.



And Willow. I love your Willow overcoming temptation and her "rescue".



Can't wait for more.....



Ciao, Melissa (aka Triscuit7 - in answer to your question)



P.S. You're very welcome to curl up around my feet and BTW I've got another fic clamoring to get out.

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I brought marshmallows!

[Jennpurr]

**fidds - Thank you. And I'm sorry about the cliffhanger. As I told Aimee, I promise from now on that the updates will not end with a cliff, cliffhanger, if that makes sense. They will all end happy.



**tkheaven - Heya, girly. Thank you and I know. I'm very bad for ending it that way. Please forgive me. And yes... update soon. I promise. **Grabs tk and pulls her away from the cliff** Don't scare me like that. Okay?? No more doing that.



Thanks, TK.



**Aimee - Oooh... glad the smoochies worked. I knew they would. Hee...



And don't worry about it. I'm here if you need to talk. I still need to answer that e-mail of yours back. I'm sorry girl. Just know, that we've all been there. I was fortunate to have parents who are supportive, especially my dad.. but It will be okay, hon. **HUGS**



**Magrat70 - Thank you. I appreciate that. Glad you are enjoying this. I know it's a false image, cause large cats usually aren't that gentle, unless raised properly with lots of training, but I think Tara would be that way. Just cause of who she is as a person.



Hee... glad you liked the twist. Thank you. My mind is weird sometimes, but I was like.... "Hmmm... that could be interesting." More soon, I promise.



Thank you, Wendy.



**Triscuit7 - Well lookey, it's Triscuit.



Thank you for stopping by. And I'm glad you liked this, so far.



Awww... I didn't mean to make you cry. What part made you cry? I'm glad they were happy tears though. And that's the way I know I've read something very good. If it has that power. Thank you.



Okay... the Buffy thing. I didn't read that FAQ's before hand, and got myself in to trouble. Since I started this though, I've changed my view points. It'll always be and



Sorry you got unsettled with the cage. Poor Tara. I was trying to play into the story more. And she's okay, so I'm happy. And the Scoobies. I like my Giles, but I'm still unsure of the others. I don't write them very well. Glad you like my Willow. Thank you. I think that's the way it should have been. The poor girl.



More soon, I promise. And thanks for answering that. I just didn't want to embarrass myself or offend you, if I had it wrong.



Hee... and I'll probably take you up on that offer, to curl up around your feet. Don't want your partner getting miffed at me though. Tell her I'm no threat.



Thanks, Melissa. Nice name, BTW.



Take care, guys.



More soon.



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

Edited by: Jennpurr  at: 7/7/02 11:35:11 am

[kiaora1]

yeah, smoochies....definitely what I'd need now after watching the end of seeing red and villains all over again although Warren definitely deserves what Willow does to him



nice update, I love that story

[capricornmist]

*bottom lip quivering*



They have a miraculous love



Absolutely love this story, great work and a joy to read. Thank you.



Now if you'll excuse me I feel the need to be alone



oh and woohoo to smoochies!

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"Nothing like gettin your ass kicked, to make your ass hurt!"

Buffy Series 5

[LeatherQueen]

Ah yes, very nice. Thought that might be Amy. Time for Willow to find Tara. Nice update.

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"But when they're playing your song on the jukebox in Hell, you might as well dance." - K. Simpson


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

[Jennpurr]

**kiaora1 - I can't watch those episodes. I watch "Seeing Red," but only up until the last two minutes of the episode. Damn Joss. Grrr...



Anyway... thank you. I'm glad you are still liking this.



**capricornmist - Awww... I loved that part of "Triangle." I was like, why can't she talk about W/T that way?



Thank you so much for the compliments. I really appreciate it. I'm glad you enjoy it.



Yes... WooHoo to smoochies. But... don't go away all alone. That's not good.



Thanks for reading and you are very welcome.



**LeatherQueen - Thank you, LQ.



You thought it was Amy, huh? I tried to hint to it, but I didn't know if it was obvious enough.



And don't worry, Willow will find Tara. I promise.



Thanks for reading and the feedback.





I love you guys. Just so you know, I'm signing off now to go write, so hopefully I'll have an update ready for you by tomorrow or Tuesday. And it will not have an evil cliffhanger, I promise.



Take care,

Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

Edited by: Jennpurr  at: 7/7/02 11:33:47 am

[tkheaven]

Hey Hey Jenn...check you're email when you get the chance...

Tk's new and improved "GrrArgg"

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Tara was similarly riveted, her body on slow burn as Willow's lips parted and her mouth opened, the food slipping inside and being consumed. Never in her life had Tara ever wanted to be a chicken casserole so badly...Later that night..."It's good to be a chicken casserole," Tara murmured, before passing out. ~ Answering Darkness by Sassette

[ExtraFlameyWT]

Hey Jen, don't worry about the email...it really isn't that important. What's important is that you listen to me. Thanks again, chica. Talk to you soon?



Aimee

*****
"Pope John Paul today confirmed his opposition to gay marriages, said they're unnatural. Gay marriage is unnatural. Then he put on a pointy hat, his dress, and returned to never having sex at all." -Bill Maher

[Jennpurr]

tk,



**runs over to tk, picks her up and twirls her around** OMG... that is just awesome. Thank you, so much. I really appreciate you doing that for me. Awww...



I like the pic of Willow that you used. Thank you! I was going to write back to you today. Actually I was about to do that, then you said to check my mail from you. Sorry.. Thanks for adding her in there though. You're such a sweetie.



Aimee,



Hey... I'll always listen. I'm always here for ya, remember that, k? Whether it's for hugs, an ear, whatever... don't hesitate.



And yes, we will talk soon. I'm about to sign off, but I'll pop on later and see if you're around. How's that.



And, de nada, amiguita (Friend)

Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

Edited by: Jennpurr  at: 7/7/02 5:11:17 pm

[01Danie]

I....made Jen blush... Never.....



Nah...you're muse is just contemplative...not slow...plus hey...you know...awesome stuff...so why not wait...



Well...I'm not too great at Pig Latin...pigs scare me causse well...some of them are big....but yep...that's what I was goin' for...



I'm evil...I know....



Yeah hearts, stars, and good feet vibes back atcha...*wiggles eyebrows* is your muse done "contemplating" yet...

Edited by: 01Danie at: 7/7/02 5:51:08 pm

[Jennpurr]

Danie,



Yes, you made me blush. Doesn't take much though. I could tell you something that one of my best friends used to say to me to make me blush instantly, but I'm not gonna. Cause you'll just tease me with it.



Awwwww... You did it again. I'm not all that good at writing. *Shakes head* Thank you, Danie.



Hee... you naughty thing you. I don't know much pig latin, so I can't say something wity back to you. Hey, pot belly pigs are cute, though.



Yes, you're very evil. Those images are still stuck there, although after reading, "A River In Me," there's more images there.



Yes, my muse has been busy today. Check your mail later. And stop wiggling those eyebrows... that's dangerous. I might... um... *cough*... nevermind.



Take care, you,

Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

Edited by: Jennpurr  at: 7/7/02 6:37:51 pm

[SlayerTazz]

Being trapped at home and not able to do squat is having its advatages this weekend - I'm getting to read LOTS of fic.



I just read the whole fic so far - WOW -- Jennpurr I love it. I especially love the big kitty!! This is awesome...can't wait to read more...there is more right?! Please tell me there is more coming...

A dream is a wish the heart makes.

Willow: "You had two eggs, sunny-side-up. I remember because they were wiggling at me like little boobs."

Tara: "Sassy Eggs."

[Jennpurr]

Slayer Tazz,



Awww... why thank you for reading mine. I really appreciate that.



You guys are all making me feel very appreciated lately, and I truely thank all of you, very much. You're making me all mushy.



I'm glad you loved it and loved Tara as a big kitty. Thank you. Don't worry. There IS more. Next update is in my beta's mail box, waiting for her for whenever she can get to it. So yes, more soon.



Again, thank you for the feedback and for reading. I appreciate it.





Okay, I have an announcement. I'll give you a little hint and maybe it will help to tide you over, till I get the update up. Lots of smoochies in the next update.



Thanks and I love you, guys.

Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

Edited by: Jennpurr  at: 7/7/02 11:07:58 pm

[Magrat70]

lots of smoochies, can't wait



love

Wendy

These five words in my head scream "are we having fun yet?"

Chad Kroeger

[Jennpurr]

Hee... thanks Wendy.



Yes, lots of smoochies.



**SIGH**



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson
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Mi corazon perdido en ti...

[mollyig]

Okay so Amy is now the puddy tat. So Tara is . . . ? Well, wherever she is Willow will find her.

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[tkheaven]

Woooooo lookie meeeee, I'm being twirled! And A bgi SMoochie! No problems Jenn. I just love that pic of Amber, though. I'm glad you liked.

Tk's new and improved "GrrArgg"

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Tara was similarly riveted, her body on slow burn as Willow's lips parted and her mouth opened, the food slipping inside and being consumed. Never in her life had Tara ever wanted to be a chicken casserole so badly...Later that night..."It's good to be a chicken casserole," Tara murmured, before passing out. ~ Answering Darkness by Sassette