I seriously debated about whether or not to "air out my dirty laundry", but I know that The Kitten is a place where you can talk about your feelings withou being judged unfairly. I hope that's what happens when people respond to this.
I've been depressed for the majority of the last year, finding myself unable to enjoy anything happy that happens to me. This is because I've been used to things not going all that well, usually due to my own incompetence (Or so I let myself believe). I've also gone to great lengths to avoid getting myself in situations which would have cause me to get even more depressed which, more often than not, has had the complete opposite effect. I went to see a doctor about this, and found that I have OCD, which explains my desire to be in control of a situation.
Another thing that depresses me is my love life. I've tried to have girlfriends, and even though I've had tons of girls as friends, I've never been able to have a "girlfriend". I currently do have a special someone, but she lives in Germany, which makes it difficult for me to talk to her or be with her when she needs it.
I've also been having trouble in school. It turns out that in order for me to get my Bachelor's Degree in arts, I have to take a Psyc course. Unfortunately, this requires me to have a good mark in Grade 12 math or equivalent, and I stopped taking it in Grade 11. This means I have to take a makeup test in order to see if I have the math requirements. If I don't, I'll have to wait a whole year before I can take it again.
Thanks for letting me rant for a bit. And it makes me feel good that there are those here who are going to look at this and try to be helpful. It means a lot to me.
Thanks for listening.
