Coming Out Stories

[primalfigure]

Well...when I came out first it was to my sister older by 11 years. I was 18. She noticed my moping and general depression and asked me what was up. I answered "nothing". To which she said, "It's not about _______ is it? Cause you're so much happier when she's around." I felt that sitting there in the parked vehicle on a cold February day, that it was time to tell someone. I was like a flame, being smothered by a glass... so I told her. Yes, I missed this girl...and I loved her. She responded with shock and awe, seemed cool about it at the time...but we've never spoken of it since - 8 years later. She ignores that part of my life entirely. The rest of my family are religious zealots, how do you think that went? At least they still talk to me.



My best advice is to find that perfect moment, when you can't help but share it with someone. Find the perfect person to entrust it to as well. Everyone's personal situation is different.



Oh, and don't believe all that "going to hell" crap, if you grew up in a hyper-religious family. It says women who cut their hair (in the Bible) are going to hell too. So, take it as it was written (by men) who couldn't help but put their personal slant upon a book they never thought would become religious text. Paul admonishes homosexuals quite a bit in his letters to Timothy, to the Ephesians, etc, HOWEVER you can see his PERSONAL feelings not the direction of god in those writings. Maybe I'm a radical, I don't know. To agree with a previous post, Jesus never mentioned anything about homosexuality sending you to hell. Jesus taught love to all. Oh, and wrap your mind around this...it says in the bible that Satan cannot create anything...so God would have had to made homosexuals. My mothers head spins when I bring this up. Literally it does.

[LittleMissTara]

A shy hello from me! This is a great thread and I love your stories. It helps a lot and I could recognize myself in so many of them. Unfortuneately I can't give you guys any advice cause I'm not experienced in relationships at all. As to my coming out, you kittens are the only one who know. I realized that I'm gay about 8 years ago but didn't admit it to myself until 6 months ago. Before this time being in a relationship and things like that weren't so much a topic for me.But finally I've started growing up and thinking about love more than I used to do.Since I was born I have never been very interested in boys and normally boys don't like me either. Usually I don't feel comfortable around them (there are exceptions of course). Every time I've fallen in love, it happened to be with women. The walls of my room were always covered by posters of my favourite actresses while my friends told me about the cutest guys in their classes. I never understood what was so cute about this and that guy, but I could talk day and night about my female actors. Now that I'm in the whole growing up process and open for a relationship, Willow and Tara reminded me of my feelings. They show exactly what I want my relationship to be like. In my own words: find someone you can trust completely and with whom you can talk about anything. Someone who understands you and makes you feel special. I know that only a woman can make me feel like this. Now that I know that I'm gay, I feel so much better, but I so desperately need someone to talk about my feelings. But I don't know anyone who is gay and I could talk to, so I thought that this board is perfectly the right place to meet people who think the same way I do. In general I don't want to come out until I've found my girl. Having a girlfriend would give me the confidence I need for coming out. But it's getting so difficult since I truly know that I'm gay. I hate lying and I don't want to deny it. I don't want to tell my friends anymore which guy I think is cute when I don't think so. Concerning my mother and stepfather there isn't really the need to come out because ( I know this sounds hard but there's a long story behind it) they are not an important part of my life. I'm 80% sure that my mothers knows that I'm gay but she and my stepfather don't care. They love me the way I am. My mother also makes up excuses when someone asks me why I don't have a boyfriend. My daddy tells me that he would always love me but I think he would freak. Definitely he won't be happy about it. His wife would be cool about it and I'm pretty sure she assumes it already. But there's also not the need to let them know as I don't talk with them about my emotional life and feelings. My best friend knows it for sure, but really doesn't care which are my preferences. She likes Willow and Tara a lot and knows that I'm an Amber fan. No one knows me better than she does. She heard all the stories of the women I was in love with only that I tried to let them sound less emotionally and "I'm so in love-like". Should I tell her? Would it scare her and might she like me less afterwards?At least I would have someone who could maybe help me to find places where I get to know other gay people. But on the otherhand it would make me feel a lot more comfortable to talk about this issue first with someone who is gay. Hmm, the long process of coming out... . My present situation: If someone would ask me if I'm gay, I would probably answer "yes". I've finally hung up some posters of Willow and Tara. So if someone asks me about it who knows WT will most likely add the question "are you gay?"and then I would be out. From my story you see that I'm in a less difficult situation than so many other kitties are. Nevertheless I would appreciate replies from you as I have the desperate need to communicate with people who understand.



slayer747 said: I just hope that somehow, people will understand that there really are some things that we cannot control, like falling in love with a person, be it with the same sex or opposite. And that there is no wrong kind of love. The only wrong thing is to deny what we feel and what our hearts desire.



I so very much loved this. It's exactly what I'm thinking.



See you kitties



LMT

[wa star]

hello LMT, (and othercoming out kittens as well)





Gosh, from you're last post, you do have some work to do! First of all, don't worry! You have the rest of you're life to work though being a lesbian. I can understand that it's currently busting out of you and you feel the need to tell the world and run and find the love of your life.... but remember-- you really do have the rest of your life!



Here's a link for you.



www.centeryes.org/SIGNS/r...roups.html



I'm sure it's already floating around the kitten board somewhere-- but I'm reposting it so you're brain doesn't go numb trying to find it.



I strongly suggest that you seek out some local help. PFLAG, a rainbow center, your GSA in highschool, even the Women's Studies department at your local collage can point you in the right direction. Look up gay in the phonebook and call any group listed. They are waiting to help you.



Hopefully you can find someone to give you support and advice on the whole coming out thing AND maybe even some other girls around your age for dating!



To non-USA kittens-- sorry I don't have a link to help you.

[Yelnif]

Bon soir folks.

Right, where to start. First, this probably isn't a coming out story... because I'm not out, not really. But I figured all this stuff will do more good up here than it will in my head makin' me crazy, so why not.



I haven't ever really not known that I'm gay. I can remember attractions to girls from the age of 5, but that's only as far as I can remember. I'm inclined to think I was born that way, but then I don't know. (There's the related circumstances under which I was born but I won't go into it now because it starts off the whole nature/nurture thing and this is gonna be long enough already.)



I didn't really repress it so much as decide not to think about it for a few years. My friends were all into boys and I just said the same, to keep MY mind at rest more than for their benefit. Anywho. Much deliberation later, I confronted the whole thing and realized that yeah, I pretty much was, when I was like 11. I told a good friend of mine (Bec) when I was 13 (she was 17) and she was really wicked about it and helped me through everything.



14 rolled around (with my colourful introduction to alcohol - it's not that bad, we start pretty early in England.) and I was starting to feel a little more comfortable about everything. I told one of my best friends, cos I figured she was as well (and I was right) and I told my big brother (then 17) who was totally cool. (I have another brother (22) and a sister (20) aswell.)



When I turned 15, I apparently decided to just go tell the world. First of all I told best friend A. She was fine. A couple of months later I told best friend B. I also told B that I'm pretty much in love with A. (A and B are also best friends. Don't ya just love my stories??) Two months after that I told A the full story and she was like "oh." It wasn't the thrilled response I'd expected. That was all at Christmas.



I was just reeling from that rejection when out of the blue, my mother, in the middle of a normal conversation one night, came out with "I think you're gay." I didn't argue, mainly because I was too shocked to talk. She said she loves me no matter what but I should feel comfortable to tell her. She then told my sister, who said the same, but she was slightly more annoyed that I hadn't told her.



Very recently, (last week) best friend C (who's been best friends with A since they were 4 so I expected this anyway) told me that she knew everything. She was hurt that I didn't trust her enough to tell her, (I tried to explain it SO wasn't about that) but she was fine with it and still loved me anyway.



SO. Where I'm at now is -: Mother, sister, brother, Bec, best friends A, B, C and the first one who I might as well call D. (If you followed that, WELL DONE.) My dad and oldest brother don't know, mainly for the same reason, they both see me as their little girl and I can tell that when I eventually do tell them both I'll lose something from them forever.



My school, well I know that every one of them, consciously or not, knows. Everyone knows really, except for big, big brother and papa bear, because it just wouldn't occur to them. No one has been surprised, and it isn't hard to tell at all. That's mainly down to the fact that all this gay stuff - might not actually be gay stuff after all, but tg stuff. I'm having gender identity issues here, but I REALLY don't want to think about that right now, there's enough here to keep my head spinning for a long while without getting all fickle with the words male and female.



Anywho. Make of it what you will.

Peace and Love. Yelnif.



(Oh, and by the way, I'm just coming up to 16 now, if it helps follow it all.)

Edited by: Yelnif at: 5/20/03 2:38:58 pm

[LittleMissTara]

Hey wa star! Thank you very much for your reply. As a non-USA kitten, the link doesn't work for me but I've looked in the yellow pages and found two organisations for lesbians in my city (don't know why I didn't come up with this idea before. So thank you again for pushing me in the right direction). But I don't feel so self-confident that I just could walk straight to an institution called "the lesbian center"( or something like that). That sounds pretty hard and I'm kind of afraid (especially of going there on my own). I know, it's only a tv-show but WT met each other without going to such an institution. Just by living their lifes. Anyway, I'll try to find the courage to go there and will tell you what happened. Maybe my first little experience will then help other kitties who are at the same stage of coming out as I am.

LMT

[Repost Moderator]

Originally posted by Misplaced25



Hello i wasnt sure of any other place to go. I've been a long time fan of Will/Tara and loved what the relationship has done for les/bi/gay/trans people all over the world. But i have had a long time problem that no buffy show could solve.Ok ill start with alillte about me. I am 24 almost 25 am married and though until i was 16 that i was bisexual. I have been in a ltr with a man since i was 16 but was questioned my sexuality since then. I have alway imagined myself with a female partner but married a male. I have been sexually and mentally unhappy for all this time.The men i have been attracted to are very fem.After 23 yrs the stress got to me so much i started cutting and have been depressed. I have so many feelings towards women and not much towards men. I could use someone to talk to who has questioned their sexuality before. My email is Misplaced25@yahoo.com. I would apperciate someone who is non judgemental towards what i am feeling and questionings. I do no drive so there are no local groups i can go to so i could really use just a friend. I may not be able to find this board again or be on for awhile because of family. So please email me if you have the time.Thank you.

[3peanuts]

Well I "outed" myself twice: *her* mother called mine and said I was tormenting her daughter (I just said she was pretty, and things never went farther than that), then added I was a demon (how I felt like Tara in "Family" God only knows); then I left a love letter in a drawer and my bro found it, and said to my mother demons would have brought me to hell.

And I cried , felt heartbroken , and...getting proud .

I came out in 1999, when I said to mommy I was going to go to a pride parade. She was about to faint.

I worked a lot on her psyche from that moment. And I took my time to make up my mind and feel secure once and for all.

I am still shy, insecure but I had the possibility to learn how powerful my feelings are and that they deserved respect. This was helpful when I said her I was in love with my gf. Mommy accepted her because she saw I was happy, and strong. I have this beautiful scene inside my memory: mom was preparing a mussel dish when I told her I was in love, so damn in love I would have exploded right there having no space to contain my heart. She looked at me, I thought "now she's going to put the shame on me for this grand-guignol description of love", but she just begun to cry and said: "I never felt this way, nobody has ever felt this way for me: what do you expect me to say? You love her? Stay with her, be happy. If a woman ever said to me she was so desperately in love with me, I would have fell in love for her too, and even slept with her". I understood mommy's a woman, an unhappy woman, willing to try to understand me, apart from all my political statements. Sometimes it gets hard, but I won't take it as a do-or-die challenge. It takes time: coming out is a slow process, and it is never a journey you begin alone, even parents and friends go through a coming out phase. It took me a lot of time to feel comfortable with my sexuality (and I still have issues), how could I expect my mother to understand it in a minute?

Yes, there is something you have a right to expect: support. Nobody from my family supported me, and this felt very very painful, but things get better if you work on your strenght, letting it grow as you grow up. I was forced to adapt: that's not fair, but I had the possibility to share something very deep with my mother. Better than nothing. Better than what a lot of people who don't have to face this *problem* has in their relationships with their parents. I think I'm lucky.

"Cunning linguist" GG

Keynes was right

[Shiney and New]

14 rolled around (with my colourful introduction to alcohol - it's not that bad, we start pretty early in England.)

That's such a load of bollox Yelnif! You make us look like such wankers.

Scanky pikeys start young (not suggesting you are one, there are exceptions and I'm sure you're a loverly person) but on the whole British teens aren't that bad! Only scanks started exceptionally young in my view of the south - east.

~Nomi~



Though lovers be lost love shall not and death shall have no dominion

[themagicpixie]

I wasn't sure where else to post this... I'm 23 years old and have recently split from my girlfriend after more than 2 years together... just didn't work out. I am moving to London (in the UK, rather than Canada or anywhere!) in August (starting work... scary!) and whilst I realise there are lots and lots of gay places there! - I wondered if the knowledgeable kitties could recommend anywhere in particular that is good to go to.



I am not really interested in getting into another relationship so soon, I would just like to meet people and make friends - I don't have very many gay friends and I would like some more, yay more gay friends!!!



Hope some of you can give me a little advice... it would be much appreciated. You are all very lovely Kitties.



Thanks,



TMP



(still nursing a little bit of a broken heart... )

[FloatingRose]

ok, so this is my first official post besides the introduction thread..so I'm a bit nervous, lol. I haven't been "out" for that long, like a couple months, and I'm still figuring it all out but I do know I have a major crush on a girl and she likes me back, so that's really good. The first person I told was my best friend, and she was fine with it, and she thinks me and the girl I like are really cute..it's funny. After my best friend I told the girl I like, and that's when I found out she was bi..and we started flirting and it's been really cool. Anyway, a few weeks after that I told my mom, and she took it fine but she was just worried about me, and of course, her being my mother, wants me to read books on it all..I'm like "oh god, you're kidding me right?" but she was serious...she's into reading into everything, it's a bit annoying. I'm not sure if I'll humor her yet. As we ended that conversation, she said she was glad I told her, and she was fine with it, but to think seriously about it, which she was sure I have been. Then she had to ask this, and I quote: "So you never want to get married and have kids someday? You love kids." and I said, yeah, mom, but just cuz I'm gay doesn't mean it's an impossibility. She said that was true but she doesn't think she'd be able to morally support that. That's a long way away though. Ok, so now that I've spilled my guts, I'll let you all get back to your lives. Sorry for posting in a kinda old post..I hope that's ok.

[Repost Moderator]

Originally posted by jaxxofdeath

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i came out of the closet recently and i have noticed people acting strangly around me people like my step dad (i dont like him anyway) and mother for example my mother started to scream at me when i wore rainbow shoelaces as if i was wearing them out of homosexuality which i wasnt but if i were it shouldnt matter because it would be my on choice and my mother then changed the subject a bit by questioning my sexuality which ive done a lot! she said "jake why are you advertising something you arent even sure of we all go through that stage anyway i could bore you all with the details of the many people now questioning my homosexuality but some people knew before i came out and were fine with it when i was completely out they acted uncomfortable and genrally wierd i was wondering if any of you had the same dillema?

[amberbensontotallyrules4e]

Well, no one really questions my sexuality, but my Mom sure questions the sexuality of 2 of my friends. I told her they were gay, and she started going on about how "they can't possibly be sure at their age," which really pissed me off, cos, no one says that straight people can't be sure of their sexuality at ANY age. Nope, its just us that are told that we "don't know what we want" at 16 or 17. The people that know about my sexuality don;t question it, and I think my Mom's doing that selective amnesia thing, as I came out to her along with my girlfriend a long time ago. Since my girl and I split though, I think she just ignores it as much as possible, maybe in the hopes that it'll go away. Of course, they all questioned my sexulity BEFORE I came out to them, so y'know...



I think you'll find that people get funny about things they don't understand. They feel kinda threatened I think, because they don;t understand us, and the media doesn;t really represent us well. But that's a different story, and if I get started I won't stop.



My advice is::: Just be yourself and dont worry about what other people think. It's easier said than done, but its worth trying.



If you need to talk to anyone, email me at rachel@normalpeoplescareme.com"> rachel@normalpeoplescareme.com , or hansonrule4eva@hotmail.com



Luv

Rachel

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"They're totally ambiguous. I mean, are they doing it to sell records? Or are they actually a couple? If they can take their music and give that to the masses by making out, then sure, knock yourselves out..."---Amber sounding completely perplexed by and none too impressed with Tatu

[angelofinsanity]

ok-note: i'm not out yet- i like the closet- it's nice and cosy.....for me at this current point of time. Coming out for me would lead to trouble and i really can't afford trouble right now, maybe in 10 years time, but not now.



So... I'd like to say you're all very brave for coming out- yay you!- and also you deserve a parade with floats and marching band. to your admirable character.



Stacy

[cassiopeia191]

The funny thing about coming out for me is that I'm really not all that scared of it any longer. As in, the same time last year, the thought alone left me shiveringly frightened. Now that I've come to terms with myself (it was about time) but not yet ready to totally put a label on it all, it's much easier. It's just that there are some other things going on in my life right now that I need to sort out before I can take that step - I hope that's not my mind trying to procrastinate things. Maybe it would be better to leave that decision hang there for a couple of more months as I live in one of the blackest Catholic areas I can think of. But, props to everyone who did it...I hope I'll follow in your footsteps.



I was thinking these days about when the first signs of same-sex attraction appeared...now that was interesting. It's quite amazing how I could have all these crushes and yet remain clueless at the same time. Gheesh!

Oh, and I kicked up the number of people who know that something's up to two! It's progress.

Edited by: cassiopeia191 at: 8/31/03 5:26 pm

[AshWeezer]

I came out to my mom when I was 15. I was so scared, I thought she was gonna kick me out and hate me. I think I was more freaked out than she was. I cried for like 2 hours. She told me that its okay, that she still loves me, and she would never kick me out, she said she doesnt agree with it but she still supports me. I had to keep reassuring her that I still like guys, I just like girls too. I know shes uncomfortable with it so I dont really talk about it to her.

I'm like the luckiest person, I have the best friends. When I told them, they were like so what, you're still the same person. I actually did lose two friends but I guess they werent really my friends in the first place. My brother is the coolest, if someone makes fun of me, which no one has, but if they did, he told me he'd kick their ass.

I'm 18 now, I'm still not like completely comfortable with it myself but I dunno, I'm still confused, everythings just confusing when you're a teenager.

Good luck to everyone.



~Sheena~

[Chameleon girl]

I'm still tryin to gather up enough courage to tell, well, everyone. My mum and my friends and yeah, everyone. Gawd, i'm such a chicken! You guys are real brave for doing what you've done

"Deep in the human unconscious is a pervasive need for a logical universe that makes sense. But the real universe is always one step beyond logic."

[Yelowsub]

Gatito Grande-

I've known him for about a year and a half and I don't think he's the kind "can I watch" although I am a little afraid that I may have said to much about my past relationship. but he's the one who brought up his experiences with oral, so I just quickly and bluntly answered. Which gives a bad impression of him, but he truly is a great guy and we're in a very sersious relationship so it needed to come up at some point



but thank you very much for responding and that is the exact reason why I've waited so long

Edited by: Yelowsub at: 12/6/03 11:59 pm

[Yelowsub]

okay so I am at this very moment talking to my boyfriend online and I just told him that I was bi .. oh dear :::starts shaking::: but he said that he was perfectly fine with it. I think he suspected it already

[Gatito Grande]

I'm glad for you, Yelowsub, but be careful: there could be more or less than meets the eye.



More: As in "Can I watch? Wanna have a 3-Way?" (Assuming you're not inclined to this)



Less: My ex-husband said he was "fine with it" too---before divorcing me for it 10 years later (and I was completely faithful to him while we were married).



Then again, you're just hearing the Voice of Bitter Experience coming from me. He may indeed be fine w/ it, and neither use it as an excuse for sexual practices you're not into, nor as the trump card for a "Here's why you're Not Really Acceptable to me" dumping.



GG . . . and "fine" really means FINE. Good luck to the two of you! Out

[RosenbergLover]

well...my coming out to friends all revolved around a rumor. Butthe first adult I came out to was my school guideance counselor, which was easy because she was my friend's mom. She took it really well. She gave me links to places like GLSEN and Prism. But there's this thing at school. It's called the Peace Theater Company. It's notorious for being all lesbian, except for one guy, and he's gay. But there's a really really drop-deada gorgeous girl named Maggie Hamper. I kind of stalked her and asked her friends stuff about her. Then rumors got started. Her best friend and her ex-girlfriend that she's on-off with wanted to kill me. We got into so many fights. But then about a month later I wrote her a note and she gave it to me as i was walking to my homeroom. I had a box and all my books in my hands too.....as i read what she wrote i didn't see where I was going and walked into a door. I was soooooo happy. These were her exact words. " Amanda, hon, first of all, I was never mad at you. I didn't want to fight with you. I like you. You're an alright kid. Love, Maggie " I've been happy ever since.

[Seldomly Naughty]

I wish I could help you with the whole coming out thing when I kinda 'informed' ( as much as getting caught) my cousin they took it as a joke to hold over my head from my mother. I have know that I was a lesbian since I was about 11 which is really weird but when I thought about who I wanted to grow old with in class one day a beautiful woman who I've never meet before popped into my head so I guess that means somethig though back then I couldn't tell but as I reached 13 and 14 I kinda accepted it as a thing to be proud of so right about now the only thing I can tell you about coming out is that even if other don't accept it think about it as if it were Christmas or Hunakkah... celebrateit. It means that you are finally true to yourself and now you can be with others around you so don't let coming out bother you hey if I were you I'd treat myself toall the pleasure life can bring now that you've told them.

[late prada fall]

i don't think i've ever really come out, in that i don't think i've ever said the words "i'm gay" to anyone. not that i'm ashamed of it, mind you, more like i don't really feel the need to shout it from the rooftops. if people ask me, i don't deny it though. everyone knows (i went to homecoming with the cutest girl in the city, for chrissakes) except for my parents. i feel bad about not being completely honest with them, but i'm really afraid of how they would react. my 14 yr. old brother knows, though, and he's in complete support. gotta love that guy.

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i'm thinking it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned...

[Seldomly Naughty]

I think you guys are brave. Me, I know I'm gay hell I've oogled girls before I've even looked at boys so as much as I know I am but it's not that easy. Where I live there are no gays, the last person who said they were gay in my neighborhood ended up in the hospital for about a month so I really can't go up and ask a girl," Hey I'm Tisha do you want to have kisses and gay love(Willow quote)" but I want to so I think if you have someone special cherish it. Nothing wrong with being gay if just means you love a trait that someone of your sex has. 'MMMM traits' but sriously have fun I'll probably be in college before I find a girl who likes girls so just have fun for me

[amber 4 prez]

alright, I haven't fully come out yet, I told my 2 best friends who ended up telling a few of their friends and it ended up going around as a rumor. One day in school this real jackass called me a dyke, pissed meoff but I know that he is a sexist racist, and junk soo what to expect from him. The thing that really ticked me off about it is that he is a guy that none of my friends talk to, and I had a really bad panic attack in my head going oh my god, how does he know, not the best experience ever. My family doesn't know, but that is because I am afraid about what they would think. My mom would probably be okay with it, but my dad not as likely. Well, I've known, or atleast thoguth about it since I was umm, 14 I think, yeah, 14 then when I was 15 I was sure about my sexuality, but it's a hard thing to do. I just knew when I was at my friend's block party and everybody was coupling but me and my friend Jill and I ended up kinda, hooking up with no hooking up happening, my first crush. I guess after that day she kinda thought I was gay, or there was a posibility, whatever. Those of you that have come out, good for you, those who haven't, it is a good thing, I felt like the world was lifted off my shoulders when I told somebody. Now I realize how long I've been typing and will stop now.

[CEsgirl13]

coming out wasn't really that easy for me, but it wasn't really harsh either. In about the middle of 6th grade I started to notice that girls were more interesting and i noticed me checking many out. Even among my best friends it wasn't "normal" so I was afraid of telling them and of my feelings so I went out with the first guy I could think of.

I ended up hurt in the long run by that little

I was still scared of telling anyone so I kept quiet over the summer and into the beginning of 7th grade.

What decided me to come out was I was talking to my friend Brigid and she told me she was bi and said she understood if I didn't want to hang out with her. I emailed her and told her I was bi too and so tht was the first time i came out to anyone.

I finally got the guts to tell my best friend Dani in band class. She looked at me like i was crazy and started to laugh and said 'good one, Jamie' she thought i was joking which really hurt. she finally believed me after a while. She told her whole bus so the whole school found out.

My mom at first said it was a phase but then told me she was bi so that went pretty well. my mom mom thinks its a phase( ithink)

I moved and had to come out to a whole new group of people and every one of my friends excepted it. hell, some of them are lesbians/bi too! Well ive moved on and figured out that im not attracted to the male species in any way possible. I met a girl named Callie and fell in love with her and still am. I will always love her and as I say this I'll change a quote and make it to my own fitting "Callie is a fricking amazing kisser!"

(btw im in 8th grade)



well sorry that is such a long entry but I just couldn;t stop typing. Goodbye all!

~Jamie

Edited by: CEsgirl13 at: 1/2/04 8:42 pm

[I Love Fantasy]

a few months ago, i finally realized i was gay--which i'd been wondering about for about 8 year--and almost immediately sent an e-mail to most of my friends

however, ihaven't yet gotten up the nerve to tell my parents

and as i'm only 14, it's really wierd, cause i live with em, and so am around em all the time; i came close to tellin my mom once recently, but chickened out at the last minute...it's not that i'm embarrsed, or that i think they wouldn't love me, it's just hard to talk about--especially with my dad, cause i never relly talk with him much. and also, because of how my friends reacted--saying it didn't change anything and they didn't care--it felt like since i didn't really tell them about other changes in my life,and this one apparently was no big deal, i should tell them about it either



though it's been months, i still view my not telling them the same way i did wheni first e-mailed my firends, and decided i wasn't ready to tell my parents: I've come out of the closet--I'll worry about the rest of the house later

[Lt Sticks]

wow...heh loved the last line there.



Not all my family know, and ppl at work dont, everyone at uni does, possibly because ppl tried to set me up with guys and i gave them the patented Sticks death glare enough times...

A fire in my heart, reborn from the ashes...just call me Phoenix


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[mandyanyone]

Lets see, where to start. Hmmm. Well, I guess looking back on things it was really obvious. Only ever had girl friends, usually only one that I hungout with all the time. Heh. Still do. Went through school being called a lesbian because of it. There were so many rumors about me and my friend Dianna. (who’s married now, now knows I’m gay and doesn’t care heh) Anyways, when I was about 16 I had this dream about a girl. She was blonde, but her face was blurred. Couldn’t see who it was. So around then I kinda started exploring it. Met and fell in love with this girl. Growing up with your sister calling you a lesbian all the time, doesn’t really make you wanna just run and tell her. So I kinda hid it. One night as I was leaving the house to come back to my apartment at college, she was like..”off to talk to your girlfriend huh” I opened the door said yup, and walked out. Went back in and she asked me a bunch of questions and everything. Then for the longest time she kept telling me that I wasn’t and she didn’t believe me. When I told all my friends they were all like. “No duh, bout damn time you admitted it” One night I was on the phone with my girlfriend and my sister goes “Oh yeah, mom wanted me to ask you when you were gonna tell her you’re a lesbian” me “WHAT?!” After that, I knew my mom knew, but I wasn’t comfortable talking about it to her yet. Bout 6 months later, we started talking about it. Everything is really good. My dad knows, my sister told him. He just asks hw things are going with my gf and I, doesn’t ask much else. My sister is great about it. My mom is the best though, really she is. Recently with going through a big breakup, my mom was so great. She called to talk to me every night, alled her crying a few times. My sister is good about it too. She’s helped me quite a bit and is very understanding. My friends were/are great. Only one bad is my dad. He told my sister to get me to date guys. My sister told him “dad, she likes girls” he reluctantly said “I know” Now, all my friends know, my entire family, extended and all. Everyone is understanding. So I wish you all the same luck I have had. GOOD LUCK!

"Introductions are tricky in a lesbian relationship. It's a word game. To my friends she's my lover, to strangers and family members in denial she's my roommate, to Jehovah's Witnesses at the door she's my lesbian sex slave, and to my mother she's Jewish and that's all that matters." ~~~Denise McCanles

[Jinx]

Okay. First off, wow. Some of you guys are really brave. I have to admit, I'm a bit of a chicken. Like so many others, I should have seen it so much sooner. Just now I'm realizing why I liked Sporty Spice so much when I was nine. Now I'm 15 and I have accepted the fact that I am a lesbian. I've only come out to two people: my mom and my little brother. My bro was completely cool with it, like he couldn't understand why it had been so hard for me to tell him. My mom says I'm too young to know, it's a phase and that everyone goes through it. Everytime I even attempt to bring up the subject she gets this really weird look and changes the conversation. i can't come out to my friends, as the majority of them are baptists or born-again christians. I'm a christian, but I know they would either try to convert me back to 'the right way' or just break off relations with me. My dad is a complete bigot and homophobe, so I'm just lucky he's not in the picture. I'm just thankful I have this board to rant on!

[Shinnen]

I'm not sure how I can put this... it's kinda funny and yet it's not. I'm out to most of my friends who do not know me my whole life or have anything to do with my family. I'm kinda half in half out in that sense.



I've been pretty much a tomboy since I could dress myself. I went to nursery, preschool and kindergarten (started at the age of 2.5 years old), dressed up like a little boy, hell i had straight short hair and did look like a little boy. The only time I wore skirts or dresses was when I was in the school dance troop. Pink tutus and little blue milkmaid dresses. Then came primary and secondary school... again... if i don't wear the uniforms... i don't get schooled. So I wore the uniforms ( dresses). But I was always wearing guys or unisex clothes outside school.



My mom has suddenly started panicking for some reason and has been forcing me to wear skirts and do girly things like makeup and stuff. (wasting money i don't have) She's even mentioned a few times that people do not hire girls who look like lesbians. She even asked if i was a lesbian. I denied it. But that doesn't stop her from desperately launching a makeover on me by force lately.



I hate it... really really hate getting stuffed into a skirt.

CheerZ

Shinnen



She's the most amazing girl in the whole world. She's the only girl who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time. When I'm not with her, I'm not living. I'm not existing until I can hold her in my arms again.