Keep on Keeping on

[Shadowygirl]

Hey wonderful people just let me know if you like the fic and I'll update I have a few more chapters written but I'm not sure if I should keep posting so ya you know


April

[JujuDeRoussie]

please yes update!! i like your fic and I'll be glad to read more!!

thank you.

[Lonewolf22]

Shadowygirl: PLEASE, PLEASE UPDATE, I'm interested in what happens to our girls in their voyage to love. So again I say PLEASE, PLEASE UPDATE.

Lonewolf22

[Shadowygirl]

Chapter 9
Concert


“FAITH!?” Buffy yelled from the top of the stairs down towards the kitchen where she knew the dark haired girl was grabbing a drink more then likely a cold beer ..

“Yes darling?” Faith replied sweetly knowing she was in deeeeeeeeeeep trouble … she peeped her head around the corner then ducked quickly as a shoe came flying down the stairs at her head

“you wore my new black boots out the other day in the rain and they are now mud stained!” Buffy yelled and pouted crossing her arms and thumping down the stairs jumping slightly as the front door swung open and in walked Tara and Willow

“Aren’t you two ready yet?” Willow asked with a smile …

“ohh I want one of those” Tara said as she walked into the kitchen and helped herself to a beer ..

“Sweetie darling dear love of my wonderful most appreciated life” Faith carried on with a sweet loving smile “ I didn’t mean to ruin them but I just well I didn’t mean to ruin them I was just drinking to much TARA’S FAULT” she yelled out trying to get herself out of trouble she didn’t want the blonde girl getting into trouble but well she had to live with Buffy and that was a hard thing to do sometimes so Tara would surely take one for the team !

“My Fault what did I do?!” Tara asked as she passed Willow a beer …

“My boots are a mess” Buffy pouted as she took Faiths beer and chugged it a bit ..

“oh that’s easy to fix” Tara smiled and picked the boot up off the floor and walked into the kitchen ..

Tara walked over to the kettle and plugged it in making sure it was full then she grabbed a scrub brush from under the sink … she waited in silence while the kettle boiled and the other girls all took a seat around the centre island watching to see what the pretty blonde was going to do …

The kettle finally boiled and Tara held the nice black boot over it till it got slightly steamed then she started to softly scrub it with the brush instantly the stains came out of it … she looked over at Buffy and Faith and smiled “there you go” she tossed the boot to Buffy …

“Wow thanks” Buffy smiled

“yes THANK YOU!” Faith said rather loudly … with a huge smile on her face

“not a problem” Tara sat beside Willow

“that’s my girl” Willow wrapped her arm around Tara’s waist “so smart and sexy” She sighed “Best of both worlds”

Tara leaned and kissed Willow softly on the lips then asked the other girls if they were ready yet …

The four of them were going to a club , thought it would be fun a live group was playing one of Tara’s favorites …

“Yup I can’t wait to see them freaking Tegan and Sara ROCK! ” Faith rubbed her hands together she was also a huge fan of the twin girls …

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“Willow if we go back stage we’re going to get into trouble!” Tara slightly hissed worried they were going to get into major trouble …

“No worries love just watch this” Willow smirked she had something planned and she was going to make Tara happier then ever ..

The concert was awesome the sisters were one of the best performances the girls have seen in a long tine … Tara was totally in love with all their music , Faith was in love with the girls Buffy liked the beats and well Willow just loved seeing all her friends and girlfriend so happy … so that meant she loved Tegan and Sara just as much as the rest of them ..and well she knew them …

“Hey bobby” Willow smiled as she walked up the 6 foot tall really well built guard ..

Bobby once straight faced broke into a huge teddy bear type grin “ Willow darling” he said his voice squeeking slightly really excited to see the little red head , he picked her up and spun her around kissing her on the cheek …

“long time no see” Willow sighed as she was put back on the floor safely Tara’s mouth was dropped not knowing what the hell was going on …

“Been forever girl” bobby smiled and pushed her slightly “ and is this the flavor of the week?” He asked pointing to Tara …

“this is the flavor of life Bobby” Willow smiled wrapping her arm around Tara “ This is my girlfriend Tara and she’s a huge fan of our girls there “ Willow nodded towards Tegan and Sara’s dressing room door ..

“Oh really” Bobby smiled “ nice to meet you Tara” He shook her hand almost getting it lost in his huge one .. “well the girls are throwing on some jeans and tees that are dry and warm they should be done in a moment if you want to wait around I’m sure they would love to see you Willow” Bobby smiled as he let them walk back and lean against the wall…

“That’d be great” Willow smiled taking Tara’s hand and resting her chin on the taller girls shoulder then wrapping her arms around Tara’s waist ..

A few moments passed and Tara looked to Willow her eye’s wide she finally spoke “You know them?!” she asked with a majorly surprised tone to her voice

“Yup best friends we went to school together” Willow shrugged “ when I went away for those few years to school a while back I met Tegan there: Willow went on “ and well her and I became friends and then Sara came along everyonce in a while to hang out and well just became friends from there they used to come to visit me from time to time but they are so busy lately well we just don’t talk much” Willow looked slightly sad for a few moments then the door beside where she was leaning opened up

“OH MY FUCKING GOD” A girl yelled “TEGAN GET YOUR ASS OUT HERE YOU’LL NEVER GUESS WHO IS STANDING HERE” She kept her voice raised then started jumping up and down excited before she wrapped the little red head in her arms and again spun around …

“What the hell is wrong with you” Tegan asked as she came to the door wondering why her sister was yelling so damn loudly “OH MY FUCKING GOD!” Sara also yelled once she turned the corner and seen who her sister was hugging … she then did exactly what tegan did … Tara just stood there amazement on her face as she watched two of her idols wrap her girlfriend in a huge hug like they’ve known each other for years which well they had but still it was a bit odd to witness
“okay girlies” willow said once the sisters had finally calmed down “ this lovely girl is Tara my girlfriend” Willow then turned to Tara and smiled

Tara reached out a slightly shaky hand and shook first Tegans and then Sara’s “H’hi” She slightly studdered …

“Hi” Tegan replied smiling from ear to ear her sister knowing exactly why she was so happy tegan though Tara was hot so Sara wacked her in the back of the head

“put your eyes back in your head shes taken” Sara smiled as she shook Tara’s hand “ Hi “ she laughed as her sister rubbed her head where she was smacked ..

Tara laughed as did Willow and they stood chatting for a while ..

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[Willowtree252]

This is so funny and good that would have so happened Willow would just roll with the punchs and act like it was nothing

[lilkitty1389]

Cute update! can't wait for more

[Lonewolf22]

Shadowygirl: Great update, VERY COOL that Willow knows Tegen and Sara, and I love how speechless Tara got. Very funny when Buffy threw the boot at Faith, LOL. I can't wait to read more.

Lonewolf22

[Shadowygirl]

Well hello my dear readers ... I realized it has been months since I posted a new update I was wondering if people were actually still interested ? if so let me know I am working on a new chapter right now I am going to hopefully post it tonight ! ...

see if I can get people interested again , I had a bit of a move and life change , planning my wedding to Arron/Karmah ! it's been good times ! but I thought I had a little while to write a bit more ... explain the exboyfriend of Willow's , the baby now ten year old , and some other things ya know why Tara maybe moved there , maybe involve a wedding but not Willow and Tara's ...introduce Xander Giles and Anya again as well as maybe dawn ! should be interesting hopefully people aren't to mad that I just dissapeared !


anyhow let me know !

Lots of love April

[Shadowygirl]

OKAY WARNING THE CHAPTER AHEAD IS SAD , FILLED WITH HURT , ANGER , RAGE , AND WELL BADNESS BUT IT EXPLAINS THE BABY , AS WELL AS THE EX ... THERE IS PRETTY MUCH NOTHING FUNNY OR HAPPY ABOUT IT SO IF YOU HATE SAD THEN JUST SKIP IT AND WAIT FOR CHAPTER 11 THERE WILL BE LOTS OF FUNNY AND HAPPY MOMENTS IN IT ! SUCH AS PUPPIES ! AND HUGS LOTS OF HUGS ! ... ANYHOW HERE YA GO AND PLEASE DON'T MIND THE SPELLING AND GRAMMER I AM DEAD TIRED AND WILL FIX THAT PART TOMORROW PLEASE GO A HEAD LEAVE FEED BACK OF HOW MUCH I SUCK ! LOL ANYHOW ENJOY OR TRY TO ANYHOW ...




Chapter 10
This is the story of my life



"I can't believe you know them I can't believe they are coming over next week to Buffy's " Tara was in awe as her and Willow now walked towards Tara's apartment ..

Willow laughed (she's just so damn cute) "Well Believe it love" she smiled as she swung their woven hands ..

"Wow" Tara again said in amazment ...

They walked the rest of the way in silence big smiles on both of their faces for different reasons of course .

Tara was smiling because of meeting her idols and Willow was smiling because Tara was so damn happy..

"well love are you ready for bed?" Willow asked as she came out of the bathroom in a robe..

"almost yup" Tara smiled as she pulled her nightgown over her head she then walked over to the bed and pulled the blankets down climbing in patting the small spot beside her for Willow to join ..

Willow smiled and flicked off the light before climbing into bed with Tara ..
Willow leaned over and kissed Tara softly before snuggling back further into her ...

"goodnight my love" Tara smiled as she burried her face deeper into Willow's hair ..

"good night my Tara' Willow groggly said as she dozed off ...
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"NO!" Willow whimpered in her sleep tossing a bit waking up Tara , the blonde looked over at the clock seeing it said 5am wondering what was going on then heard Willow again beggin franticly in her sleep she must have been having a bad dream Tara thought as she started to wake the redhead ..

"NO please nooo" Willow cried still asleep Tara was having a hard time waking her up "Please Oz nooo" her eye's shot open tears falling from them she flew out of bed and started pasing the room .

Tara jumped up right behind her "Willow love it's okay you're here with me" she wanted to put her hand on Willow's shoulder to calm her lover down but she noticed how Willow didn't even know she was there she didn't want to startle her so she tried to talk her back down to earth .."Willow love calm down breathe relax"

Tara coaxed softly not wanting to upset her girlfriend but also wishing she knew what was going on ..

"DON"T!" Willow yelled staring at Tara her eye's red and filled with tears

Tara jumped back slightly startled by the tone in Willow's voice and the redhead noticed this as she finally came crashing back down to earth she looked at Tara with a pleading look then fell to her knees sobbing ...

"Oh Willow" Tara whispered as she walked over and lowered to her knees as well wrapping the smaller sobbing girl in a tight hug holding on with everything she had in her .. Tara had no idea what was going on but she needed to help...

After almost twenty minuets of Willow sobbing it had finally slowed down and Tara had gotten the redhead back into bed under the covers with the light on ... Tara had also made some tea to sooth the redhead ...

Tara walked back into the bed room with two cups of tea and sat them on the night stand before walking over to Willow with a bottle of water and a advil .."Here love it will help your head in the morning" she passed them to Willow ...

"Thank you" Willow whispered her first words in over half an hour her voice was horse from crying she tried to half smile but it didn't work real well ...

"Oh baby don't thank me anything I can do to help you I will" Tara gave a small smile feeling so horrible for her girl she just wanted to hold her and make all her pains and bad memories go away ...

"Oz is an ex of mine" Willow started knowing Tara wanted to know but also knowing that Tara wouldn't push ...

It finally clued into Tara (the ex) Tara's mind turned while she waited for

Willow to gather her thoughts before speaking again (That fucking sonofabitch) She cursed in her own head knowing if she did it out loud she might upset Willow (What did he do to her to make her this scared) Tara thought and her thoughts were cut off when Willow spoke again ...

"Oz is also my Amiee's father" Willow deadpanned ...she didn't know how to start she didn't know how to tell the story..

"oh" Tara whispered wondering what had happened all those years ago , and how bad it must have been for Willow to still be carring that much fear after all these years ..So Tara sat quietly waiting for Willow to speak again ...

"so long story here goes nothing" Willow took a deep breath looking away from Tara she didn't want to see any dissapointment in the girls eyes she had never really told anyone she dated the actual facts about everything but she was about to now she just hoped with everything in her that Tara didn't up and run away ...

"I met him in high school he was great I thought we would make good friend he would get along with the ones I had ..." She took a breath "but quickly things became bad " she looked up at Tara for a moment "peer pressure ya know?" She questioned but didn't wait for an answer she had to get this all out now or she never would "He wanted to take things to the next step I didn't but I caved after a while I was 15 he was 17 one thing led to another and well we ended up in bed and once I slept with him I know I had made the wrong choice ... he wasn't .........nice" Willow stopped for a moment trying to gage weither or not Tara got the idea " He used to beat on me everytime I saw him he controlled me wouldn't let me see any of my friend nothing" Willow kept going "I found out about 2 months after we slept together that I was well expecting and panicked I told him it was stupid I shouldn't have but I did he freaked ...."Willow paused looking at Tara and seeing nothing but love for Willow in her eyes

Willow smiled slightly or tried to anyhow and Tara took her hand urging her to go on...

"Anyhow he beat me again this time I ended up in the hosipital that is how my parents found out about Amiee" Willow sighed "they were angry they sided with Oz" tears threatened to erupt from the redheads eye's yet again but she refused to let it happen ...

"my dad was dissapointed when he found out that I hadn't lost the baby as was my mother" Willow went on "I got out of the hosipital a few days later and went straight to Buffy's I knew her mom and her would help me in any way they could " Willow smiled she loved them both so much "they tried they really did but there wasn't much they could do with me my parents had all rights and came and got me after a month that's when they decided to take Amiee once she was born ..." Willow again sighed she really wished she had just run away she could have figured things out on her own at least untill she was of legal age ...

"anyhow Oz dissapeared for awhile" another sigh and she shifted a little to get more comfy "I had given birth , my parents dropped me off at my aunts two days after and then they dissapeared" I stayed with my aunt untill I was 17 then I moved in with Buffy and her sister and mom to finish school ... " Willow looked at Tara again the blonde was intently listening to her life story "which I did just fine I went to collage and came home , I started working at the centre I worked hard did my job which is now
Faiths job" Willow sighed ...

"It had been years since I seen Oz or heard from him which was great because I wanted nothing to do with him anyhow , I had gotten a few pic's of Amiee" Willow smiled "but couldn't find my parents to tell them I wanted her back I tried Tara I really did try .." she sighed again remembering her father was in town and now would be the time to get incontact with her Daughter .

"I know you did love" Tara reassured to smaller girl who was curled in a ball in her arms ..

Willow went on "well I was at work OZ walked in" Willow took a deep "he had a gun in his hand an angry look on his face" Willow closed her eye's trying hard not to cry ..."He pointed it straight at me then moved it towards Buffy he pulled the trigger once and shot her , then he pointed it back at me he tilted his head slightly "you ruined my life you whore " he said to me as he pulled the trigger again and shot me " Willow choked back the tears ...

"oh god Willow" Tara gasped she thought it was something bad but didn't once think it was this bad ..

"Then he put the gun to his own head and pulled again" Willow cried softly she was glad he wasn't around anymore but she never wanted to see that happen ...

"He had only hit Buffy in the shoulder luckly Giles came running out after he heard the first shot but there wasn't much he could do with a gun pointing at me he didn't want to piss off Oz so he waited he couldn't believe Oz actually pulled it again on me "

Willow explained as she lowered her shirt slowly lifting her right arm and pointed to a small scar right where her heart was located "everyone was amazed I didn't die" Willow smiled at Tara a sad smile ...

Tara didn't know what to say or do she leaned down and kissed the scar then placed her hand over it trying to remove it from Willow's memory and body knowing it wasn't possible but still she wished she could help in some way to ease the pain the redhead felt ...

"oh Willow you are so strong" Tara finally said she knew Willow was done she didn't need to hear any more she knew enough to know that it haunted Willow every day and it always would maybe not everyday in the future but it would still come up it would still haunt her memories the scar would never go away , always a reminder of one wrong choice made in highschool ...

Willow let the tears fall now she wasn't sobbing , she wasn't scared she was relived to get it out finally she had never before , she had never told anyone everything only Faith Buffy and Giles knew ... and now Tara knew and she was okay with that , Tara didn't run like she thought she would instead Tara held her tighter kissed her longer and somehow loved her more ....

"I love you Willow" Tara finally said in a whisper almost so soft Willow couldn't hear her ..

Willow's eye's brightened sligthly " and I love you Tara" Willow replied not knowing why the goddess would send her someone so wonderful but not questioning it either !...

Tara looked up at the alarm clock it was nearly 7 am and almost time to get up she grabbed the phone and called Buffy it rang for a moment and the little blonde answered in a sleepy tone "Hey Buffy it's Tara" and she waited listening to the other girl on the other end of the phone "I won't be able to come in today is that okay?" She asked her voice hopeful "thanks Buffy" Tara said as she hung up the phone and turned back to Willow smiling wrapping the smaller girl in her arms even tigheter both of them falling soflty back to sleep this time without bad dreams ...
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"Hello" Buffy answered with a sleepy voice the phone having just woke her up she looked at the clock and then at the now awake Faith "Hey Tara what's up everything okay" Buffy asked "it's not a problem Tara just stay at home relax we'll handle everything " Buffy smiled she heard the tone in Tara's voice it wasn't lust or sick or bad mood or even fighting it was hopeful it was sad and upset slightly and Buffy knew by the tone in the other girls voice that Willow had a bad dream and they had talked ... she knew they needed time togehter today no people getting in the way no work no nothing so it wasn't a problem for her ...

"that better have been good or I think I might have to kill someone " A very sleepy Faith groaned from her side on the bed.

"Willow told Tara" Buffy said with a sad tone rubbing her hand over her shoulder where her scar sat ...

"oooooh" Was all Faith could think to say she was awake now it was only a few moments before their alarm would go off anyhow least today she wouldn't be late for work ! ...
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Well there ya go the spelling is more then likely horrible because i am dead tired and well I just wrote it up had been thinking about it for a while now and well didn't want to go there but had to in a way ... so hopefully people like it its not to sad we'll see ! there should be more to come over the next few weeks it's half done !

enjoy

April

[Shadowygirl]

Chapter 11
Coming out
"Faith wake up already!" Buffy yelled as she pushed on her girlfriends shoulders "Geezus!" Buffy grunted (god she is a deep sleeper but she's gotta get her ass up before I kick it) "Today is the day people are coming to the house and you aren't dressed well you aren't even awake yet and people are going to be getting here in like five minuets" Buffy rambled trying invain to get her girl to get up ya she was up late last night but come on she knew they had to be up and ready today ! it was an important day for Willow !
"Okay okay" Faith moaned as she tore the covers off and shot out of bed smirking at the blonde "I just wanted to see how frustrated you would get" Faith added patting down her clothes letting Buffy know that she had been up for a while had a shower and got dressed already ...
"You are such an asshole" Buffy threw a pillow at her nailing her right in the side of the head "now lets get down stairs people are getting here soon" Buffy headed out the door
"would you calm down its noon and Willow and Tara will be here soon that's it everyone else isn't getting here untill 1 geeze B" Faith followed her down the stairs just as the front door opened and Tara and Willow walked in ..
"would you please tell my girlfriend to breath she's acting like someone is about to pop out a baby it's kinda scary" Faith bugged her eye's out mocking her girlfriend .. who was now in the kitchen making a pot of coffee then Faiths eye's really actually bugged out of her head "Oh god" she whispered in a extreamly scared tone " I ....I " She couldn't finished ...
Willow's eye's also bugged out of her head and Tara looked at them both like they had gone nuts "RUN!" Willow yelled as Faith and the redhead ran into the kitchen grabbing the coffee pot off Buffy ...
Tara followed just so she could see what was going on ...
"oh come on my coffee isn't that bad ! " Buffy whined pouting and crossing her arms over her chest and Tara busted out laughing she couldn't help it , both her girlfriend and her girlfriends best friend were acting like someone was about to kick a helpless puppy , and it was all over coffee (I mean Buffy can't be that bad right?) Tara questioned herself then she saw the looks on both Willow's and Faiths faces and changed her mind ...
"noooooo hunny it's not that bad at all it's actually really ........umm ...... different" Faith didn't want to lie to much but she also didn't want to overly hurt her girlfriends feelings "I umm Tara had just said she was going to go get us some from the cute little coffee shop !" Faith threw in with pleading eye's towards Tara ...
Tara smiled and nodded "Ya I was just going to go get us some" she made it sound like it was the idea the whole time she looked over at Willow who was mouthing "thank the goddess and Thank you Tara" which only made it harder for Tara not to straight out laugh she grabbed Willow's keys and took off out the door where she finally fell over with tears , laughing so hard it was causing her stomach to hurt ...
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"So" Willow started as she sipped her mocha Tara had grabbed her "Are you ready ?" She asked the blonde who looked slightly nervous ...
"Ahh Red why are you asking her if she's ready she's more then ready !" Faith threw in "right goldie locks ?!" She wiggled her eyebrows at Tara ...
"uh huh I'm as ready as a bull is right before its slaughtered !" Tara said in a chipper tone with a extreamly dramatic smile making all three girls laugh ...
"uh ya well people aren't that bad !" Buffy added "My mum will love you ! So will dawnie " She smiled it wasn't a lie her mom and dawn would love Tara "Giles will clean his glasses about thirty times but he'll like you as well ... humm " Buffy thought for a moment then her face went pale "Anya on the other hand" she mentioned
"well I met Anya that one time just before she went to england to meet up with Giles Joyce Dawn and Xander !" Tara threw in thinking it might be helpful ..
"yes but I talked to her about a week ago and she remembered you being new she just doesn't remember who your girlfriend was she wasn't really paying attention " Buffy smiled sheepishly at Willow ...
"oh great" Willow moaned today was her coming out day , she was about to tell the rest of her family she was gay and in a relationship with Tara ... but it didn't really matter as long as Tara was at her side nothing would bother the redhead ..
"Oh" Tara sighed and then smiled when Faith nudged her leg
"well if anything goes wrong you could always just run off with me !" Faith added for good measure talking to Tara still trying to flirt with the girl it was fun and that's why she did it ..
"uh huh and I think two other people might like skin us alive" Tara added with a smile and patted Faiths thigh ..
"This is true but you know one hot kinky wild night alone with me would be totally worth it !" Faith smirked seeing the blush creep into Tara's cheeks ...
"Sweetie .." Tara started as a slow smirk crossed her face "you wouldn't be able to handle a hot kinky wild night with me" Tara said in an almost cocky tone that made Willow blush bright red ...
Faith opened her mouth to say something but was to shocked to get any actual words out ..
"OMG YOU FINALLY DID IT YOU MADE FAITH SPEECHLESS !" Buffy yelled with a laugh as she jumped on Tara and hugged her "finally" she said again for good measure !
Willow also burst into laughter falling over into Faiths lap she kept her head there and looked up at her best friend "that I think is a first " She smiled as Faith flicked her nose ..
"I wasn't speachless I was just well I was I don't know !" Faith grumbled and crossed her arms a smile playing on her lips as well ...
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"well Willow now that everyone is here what is your big anoucement?" Giles asked as he cleaned his glasses he saw and met Tara brefly before he was dragged away by Faith so she could show him her new tattoo ... which is why he was cleaning his glasses so much now he NEVER EVER wanted to see that part of Faiths body again ...
"Well" Willow stood and looked around the room at all her friends and family she hadn't seen them in so long but she had to tell them and now was as better a time as any "I'm gay" she simply stated it .. her and Tara had talked earlier and she decided it would be best to say it like ripping off a bandaid ..
"finally" Xander said as he jumped up to hug his childhood friend ...which made her and a few others laugh ..
Giles cleaned his glasses again before speaking up" and I'm guessing Tara here" He pointed at the quiet blonde girl and she nodded ..
"Yup Tara here ..." Willow started copying Giles "is my girlfriend" Willow finally said it she finally told them all ..
"OH MY GOD !" Anya yelled "You were the girl with her at the centre !" she had finally clued in "I knew it I knew I knew you well the girl which was you " she confused everyone "I just couldn't remember who it was I knew" again more confusion
"huh" Faith said as did Xander Dawn well everyone in the room ....
Anya rolled her eye's and made wild gestures with her hands "I went to get my pay stub!" Anya started her voice a higher then normal pitch "and Tara was there I hit on her ! but she was taken some girl was rubbin all against her I didn't pay much attention to the girl cause well Tara hot girl not so much !"
"Hey !" Willow whined and pouted Tara leaning into her hugging her a bit ..
"Umm thanks Anya" Tara didn't know what to say and it seemed she wasn't the only one the room fell silent.
"well I like you" Dawn said with a nod and a smile as she walked over to hug Willow and shake Tara's hand which ended up in a hug anyhow ...
"Thanks Dawnie" Tara smiled warmly she was a sweet girl and Tara did like her ..just like everyone said she would ...
"Welcome to the family Tara" Joyce smiled as she stood also hugging both girls " and Willow don't ever be scared to tell us something this important to you again understood" She said in that total mother tone to Willow making the redhead lower her head slightly but she smiled and replyed with a polite yes ma'am ..
"So on to the grub?!" Faith asked as she rubbed her stomach and headed into the back yard where the BBQ was set up ... as well as the beer pool and actually swimming pool ... everyone laughed when they saw the kiddy pool filled with ice and beer ...it was such a typical Faith thing to do ...

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Chapter 12
Tara's on a mission ...
"Are you sure you have a guest registired as Ira Rosenburg" Tara questioned again "And his room number is 314 right?" Again she asked not wanting to mess up she had a mission she was going to find him and she was going to find Amiee Willow wanted her daughter and Tara would make it happen even if it took every power she had in her ...
she called every hotel in the small city and found it finally she had convinced the man at the front desk that it was a pressing family matter and she needed to get his room number so she could deliver some bad news to him ... they fell for it as always ...
She hung up the phone and headed for the car she drove for about 15 minuets and reached the hotel , she pulled in the parking lot and turned off the engin ...she sat there for a few moments wondering if it was a good idea after all what if Willow got mad what if she wasn't ready so many what if's but Tara didn't care she was going to do this she knew it felt right and she had to help her lover ... she stepped out of the car and headed in the front door , pictures in hand ...
After taking the stairs up three flights and walking down the hall she came to room 314 she slowly lifted her hand to knock but before she could she heard someone coming so she turned to look and she saw Willow standing right behind her ... well Willow but in a much shorter , younger verson ...
"Hi" The little girl smiled at Tara ...
Tara's heart melted "Hi" she smiled back
"my grandpas not there he's in a meeting it's just me" she bounced on the balls of her feet for a moment "can I take a message for him or something cause I'm sure a pretty girl like yourself must have a message other wise you wouldn't be knocking isn't that true ?" She babbled also just like Willow and Tara couldn't help but smile ...
"humm do you know when Ira will be back?" Tara asked kneeling slightly to reach Amiee's hight ..
"humm" Amiee rubbed her chin deep in thought "about ten minuets or so give or take a few seconds " she smiled she was about as smart as Willow as well Willow would be proud ..
"okay then I think I'll wait" Tara sat leaning against the wall "Whats your name?" Tara asked not wanting the girl to know she knew her name ...
"Amiee" She smiled and reached her hand out to shake Tara's ..
"Mine is Tara" The blonde took the small warm hand in her own a huge smile crossing Amiee's face "What?" Tara asked with a lopsided grin ...
"your hands are cold" Amiee answered her face going serious "and sorta shakey" She took both of Tara's hands within her own trying to warm them and stop them from shaking ...
and that did it for Tara , she put on her resolve and was ready to put her foot down when she saw Ira ......
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After about 30 minuets both Tara and Miniwillow , finally finished their tenth game of arm wrestling ... "okay okay you win" Amiee raised her hands in the air giving up ...
"I knew it I would win" Tara mock cheered making the little girl giggle ...
"here he is " Amiee said as she stood to greet her grandfather "Grandfather meet my new friend Tara" she looked at Tara not noticing how her grandfathers eye's lit up with fear ...
"Hello Tara nice to see you again " He smiled as he politely shook Tara's hand ...
Tara didn't smile though "May we talk for a moment?" she asked looking at Amiee ...
"I'm going to go swimming at the pool I'll just grab a towel and go" the little girl knew that Her new friend Tara and her grandfather needed to have a grownup talk and it would be better for her to made her self unseen that is what he always taught her .but before she left she looked back to Tara "Will I see you again Tara?" She asked her voice hopeful ..
"Of course you Will Amiee" Tara assured the girl with a smile and then looked back to Ira her eye's angry hurt and sad ...
"Cool" Amiee said as she bounced down the hall towards the pool ..
Tara and Ira walked into the hotel room closing and locking the door behind them ...
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" I DON'T GIVE A SHIT HOW MUCH MONEY YOU HAVE! Tara yelled at Ira he had been going on and on for almost an hour now how rich he was how he would be able to keep Amiee till she was 50 if he wanted too ... but not once did he act like he actually cared about the girl ...
"Oh Tara dear , you will when you're trying to fight for Amiee" Ira smirked an evil little smirk he wasn't going to make this easy for them ... he didn't really want Amiee any more she was getting older and becoming more and more of a pain with the questions about her mother ... but he sure as hell didn't want some stupid dykes raising her ...
"Ira I'm not a stupid girl , I looked into a few things before I came marching over here ... You can't legally keep Amiee from at the least seeing Willow whenever Willow wants to see her , Willow has no recored , she has never been involved with anything bad , she has a wonderful job at the news paper.. an apartment and a stable life .." Tara smirked "which is more then I can say for you" she added for good measure ..
Ira was blank he didn't know what to say he knew Tara was right .. he didn't have a home they were currently living in a hotel his wife was dead ... his job was caving in under his feet , he didn't have the time for Amiee and really didn't want to make the time anymore he was old tired and just didn't really care anymore .."Fine" was all he said as he turned to look out the window ... "Amiee know's about Willow she knows she's her mother she know's shes alive , she thinks she just was to young we never really answered her questions about it ... she's always wanted to meet Willow she's even talked about living with her when she grows up .." Ira sighed at this point in his life he wishes he hadn't freaked the way he did when Willow was younger but it was to late to go back now ...
"Pardon ?" Tara questioned not really sure she understood what he was saying ...
"Take her" He answered as he turned around a stern look on his face .
"do you at least want to talk to Willow you know say goodbye to Amiee ?" Tara asked she didn't understand how someone could be so heartless , tearting people like an unwanted pet ...
"just take her" He said again the door slamming open a very angry looking Amiee standing at the door ...
"Grandfather!" She demanded him to look at her she was firey just like Willow ..
Ira sighed loudly and Tara wasn't sure if she should leave the room or stay she moved towards the door but Amiee grabbed her wrist her eye's pleading her not to leave so Tara stood her ground right beside the miniwillow ...
Ira sighed loudly and Tara wasn't sure if she should leave the room or stay she moved towards the door but Amiee grabbed her wrist her eye's pleading her not to leave so Tara stood her ground right beside the miniwillow ...
"Amiee Tara here is Willow's partner" He sighed not knowing if the girl would understand it ..."she's going to take you to Willow your mother " Amiee smiled from ear to ear finally she was going to get a chance to be happy ...
Tara started to get nervous she wasn't ready for this she was just hoping she could convince the mean old man to let Willow at least meet her daughter at least once ...
But this this taking her and keeping her forever was wow .. then she started to panick , was Willow going to be mad she couldn't be mad could she ...
"Forever" Amiee's voice sounded so small so scared and lost and confused ..
"yes Amiee" Ira replyed not a single emotion crossing his face he was just .... cold ...
"finally" Amiee whispered and only Tara could hear her it sent a smile over Tara's face somehow letting her know it was going to be okay ...
Within 10 minuets everything Amiee owned was packed , two suitcases and one small box of books Tara was saddened by this she thought the girl would have more things but she didn't just there few but that was okay cause Willow and Tara and the rest of the gang would buy her everything she needed ...
A few moments after that without even a hug good bye from her grandfather Amiee and Tara were in the car putting it in drive Tara drove slowly not really knowing where to go first should she go home , should she go to Willow's work ... that wasn't such a good idea she didn't want to get the girl fired ...
so she did the only good thing that came to mind she went to the Centre to Buffy and Faith they would know what to do ...
after a few minuets they pulled up infront of the Centre and Tara stepped out of the car unlocking the door and letting Amiee out of the other side she took the small girls hand "We are going to talk to some friends of Willow and I okay ?" She asked the quiet girl first she didn't want to scare her but she had to make sure things were ready for when they went home tonight ...
"Hey Tare" Faith called out from where she was lounging behind the front desk "Who's the miniwill........" Faith's mouth hung open she didn't know what to say she knew right away who the little girl was she had seen the few pictures Willow had ... ..."Oh my god how ?" was all she could think to say to Tara with a wide eye'd look ...
Faith finally realized she had feet and jumped up running over to the little girl picking her up and squeezing her tightly ...spinning around and around ..."Amiee !" Faith smiled and the little girl giggled
"Who are you?" She asked in wonder who this funny girl was that was making her dizzy ...
"I'm your aunt Faith !" Faith smiled still spinning the girl
"Faith she might puke on you" Tara laughed and made Miniwillow laugh too
"it's true I might" She winking at Faith making the darkhaird girl laugh hard ...
Buffy came walking out from her office wondering what the hell all the noise was "What's goin....." her words also cut of after she saw who Faith was holding ..
"Amiee" She whispered walking over and also hugging the girl ..
Amiee laughed all these people seemed to know her yet she didn't know any of them "You ALL seem to know me but umm I don't know any of you " She giggled a little louder at the three laughing girls
"I'm your Aunt Buffy" Buffy smiled and took the small hand that was offered ...
Amiee's giggles turned into a full out laugh "That's a funny name" she finally managed to get out after a few moments making Tara and Faith fall over laughing ...
"I bet if you go in that room over there " Tara pointed to the work out room door " there is a bunch of fun stuff to play with in there " and with that Amiee was off like a bolt of lightening ..
All three of them smiled for a moment before Buffy and Faith turned to Tara a look of wonder on their faces

after a few moments of Tara explaining to the two girls what had happened they had all agreed that Tara would go get Willow from work explain things to her and Buffy and Faith would watch MiniWillow ...

Faith bounced off with a big smile declaring she was going to play with her new bestest friend and ran into the work out room to see what the little girl was up too making Buffy and Tara laugh ..
Tara went in a few moments later after talking with Buffy a little longer to tell Amiee she would be back in a little bit with her mom.. MiniWillow was excited and could hardly wait so excited she tackled Tara then Faith ... who was more then happy to roll around with the little girl ..
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Tara walked into Willow's work spotting the redhead right away she smiled , and Willow smiled back then she saw the Worried look on Tara's face and walked over to meet her at the counter , "Tara what's wrong" Willow asked thinking something happened to one of their friends or something ..
"Don't worry Willow , everyone is fine but I wondered if you could leave work a little early today I have something extreamly important I need to tell you and well it can't really wait ." Tara rambled slightly fidgiting with her hands Willow instantly walked back over to her computer closed it and grabbed her back walking back and leaving the building with Tara ..

"Tara baby you have to tell me what's up you're starting to scare me" Willow said as they drove , Tara pulled the car into an empty parking lot and turned it off looking at Willow she started simply telling her what her intentions were for today ..

"I well after we ran into your father , I wanted to help you so I looked up hotels and called them till I found him .." Tara started nervously "I went there to talk to him today" She added looking at the redhead
Willow's mouth hung open she didn't know what to say Tara would do something like that for her , everyday Tara knew how to amaze her a little more ..
"I just wanted to talk to see if maybe he would let you see Amiee " Tara smiled "I met her today" it grew "she's your mini me " She looked into Willow's eyes seeing the tears starting to gather ..
"And well we talked and I threatened him and he just gave up Willow" Tara sighed not knowing how Willow was going to take this news ..
"What do you mean just gave up" Willow questioned nervously
"He told me to take her he was cold he didn't care" Tara sighed the hard part was coming "he also told me your mom Willow she died two years ago" Tara's eye's were now filling with tears ..

"Oh" Willow whispered .
"he lost their house , his job was crumbling" Tara sighed again taking Willow's hand " He was so cold to her Willow to Amiee she's such a wonderful girl she's just like you and he was so cold he didn't hug her or say goodbye or anything" Tara started to cry ..
"What do you mean goodbye ?" Willow asked she wanted to believe what she was hearing but she wasn't sure what that was exactly
"He gave me her school records , her birthpapers everything she owned he just gave her to me told me he didn't want to see her again didn't want to see you either " Tara couldn't help the tears that were falling freely from her eye's she looked into Willow's seeing the same reaction from her's ..
"You" Willow was taking deep breaths trying to keep from throwing up "You got .." she couldn't get it out "You Tara you got my daughter back" and that was all it took Willow wrapped Tara in her arms and never wanted to let her go she kissed her cheeks and lips and neck she kissed her head and said thank you over and over again .
"Oh Willow I thought you'd be mad " Tara sighed with a small smile a few moments after Willow had finally calmed down .
"Why would I be mad you brought me back the one thing the one person I have missed with everything that I am you found her you gave her back to me" Willow was sobbing at the realization of what Tara had just told her "Where is she can I go see her please Tara please " Willow begged and Tara laughed starting the car she put it in drive and headed towards the centre ..

Willow nearly flew out of the car not waiting for Tara to park it totally by the time Tara got out of the car Willow was inside looking for Buffy Faith Amiee someone "Where are they?" Willow asked worried that this was some sick joke .
but she knew it wasn't she knew it was true some how she just knew .. "where are who?" Willow heard a small squeeky voice ask and she looked down seeing a little redhead ..
"Amiee" Willow sighed scooping the little girl up kissing her all over her face hugging her so tight the little girl could hardly move though she could laugh and that is exaclty what she did .. full out belly laughter
"Mum" Amiee smiled after her laughing had calmed down "everyone seems to be in a hugging mood today" she joked making Willow laugh through her tears which Amiee had finally noticed .."Don't cry you shouldn't be sad I'm here " the little girl said with an amazingly huge smile ..

Tara Buffy and Faith all stood off to the side watching the to redheads hugging and spinning and laughing they didn't want to interupt so Buffy turned the sign in the door to closed .. no one was going to ruin this moment ..

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Tara Buffy and Faith headed into the back room to talk about things that needed to be done , Willow was going to be busy catching up on everything she missed with miniwillow so they were going to get everything ready to move the girl into Willow's apartment ... Faith decided she was going to go get the bedroom set , Luckly Willow had a two bedroom which was perfect ,Buffy was going to head over to Willow's to clear out the spare bed room and get it ready for Amiee .. and Tara was going to go shopping for kid friendly foods and toys for the little girl .
After they decided who was going where they left Buffy and Faith together and Tara went back into the main lobby to tell Willow she would be back shortly , or for Willow to call her later , she gave Willow her car keys and told her to take Amiee to dinner .. Willow nodded and kissed Tara softly on the lips whispering thank you Amiee's eye's went wide she knew Tara loved her mom but she didn't know she loved her like that ...
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Buffy had the room cleared within half an hour and had started to paint it a soft yellow .. when Faith had showed up with a moving truck Buffy raised her eyebrows wondering what the hell her girlfriend had bought ..
"I couldn't decide " Faith shrugged as the two men started bringing in a bed dressers a toy box book shelves and boxes of books and other handy things a ten year old girl would want ...
"I love you" Buffy smiled as she kissed Faith and laughed when the men knocked over the can of paint onto the hard wood floors ...
"Now I'm glad I bought the carpet" Faith smirked as she bent to clean up the mess ...

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Tara was looking around the mall she had bags and bags of clothes toys books crayons , movies and other little things now it was time to go get some food ...
She wondered what type of food Amiee liked , so she went up the junk food isle cause if miniwillow was anything like big willow she would want lots of junk food ..
Tara laughed as she thought of the two redheads she was glad this all happened even though it was happening so fast , then she wondered what Buffy and Faith were up to she decided to stop by Willow's before she went to Soby's ..
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"Hey Faith , Buffy thought I would stop by to say ohhhhh" Tara stopped talking as she walked in to what used to be the spare room her eye's wide it was beautiful ...
"Hey Tara you like?" Faith asked with a huge smile she was more then happy to do something like this and it looked so nice like it had always been this way nothing out of place the perfect room for a mini Willow ....
"Oh Faith it's beautiful" The blonde smiled hugely "where's Buffy though?" Tara asked wondering where the other girl had gone off to ..
"Shower" Faith stated as she put a few more books on the shelf across from the desk "She kinda painted herself in the process of painting the room " Faith laughed wondering how Buffy got more paint on her self then she did the walls ...
Tara laughed as well shaking her head and rolling her eye's "well it looks great I think Willow and Abby are going to love it !"