Speaking To Silence - updated 8/30/07

[CrazyTaraWitch]

wow....i started reading this fic a long time ago but had somehow missed the last update, and i was flicking through the fics, and thbought what the hell, i'll re-read, and then i realized there was a chapter i'd never read, so i was like yay!, and so then i read it and i was like, wow....so yah, wow...plz update soon; i hope u havven't abandoned this story!!!!!

[umgaynow]

Well, I am back to writing again...I finally posted an update on my other story "A Woman in Uniform" yesterday...after 6 months! So I'm sure I'll get to this one again eventually...hopefully not too far from now...glad you enjoyed it

Sandi/umgaynow

[starcomed]

BUMP!

I have just reread the beginning of this fic. Lots of potential. Any chance of an update?!

Rachel
starcomed

[writerfreak]

really good, please dont stop writing it, this is real talent. i think its great, and its very graphic, but i mean that like in a good way. very good at describing things.



writerfreak

[umgaynow]

Thank you all...and don't give up...I have been giving this some thought lately...maybe now that the holidays are over I will actually have some time to get to it...just one problem with the story that I haven't been able to work out yet...but before I can even consider it, I have to finish my SSDI application first...but have faith...I'm not giving up entirely...it's just a question on inspiration and time and healthiness all coinciding...it could happen

Sandi

[Tarababy77]

I look forward to see what you have in store for us. =)

[umgaynow]

Have been giving this story a great deal of thought the past few days, kicking some stuff around in my head...but there's some fairly complicated plot stuff I have to work out before I can do much more with it...otherwise it'll mess things up later on...pesky posting guidelines!! So don't lose heart...there should be an update on the way fairly soon (note the non-specific time terminology) unless my computer crashes again...has already been in the shop once this month and is still acting kind of wonky

Sandi

[Tarababy77]

Well Sandi, take your time so it's the way you want it. I know I'm not going anyway (besides the desert again) soon. So, I'll wait patiently... =)

[umgaynow]

Don't you just hate it when you start reading a fic and it seems like it could be pretty cool, but then the author never finishes it?

Yeah, me too...anyway, I couldn't sleep last night and I was kicking around the board and I decided to give this a re-read...

Miraculously, I woke up this morning with all kinds of ideas rolling around in my head (that's what happens when you forget to tie your brain down at bedtime)

So...long story short...I spent most of tonight writing and I just finished a rough of Chapter 4...give me a few days to clean it up and type it up and I'll finally have an update for ya...sorry about the long wait...

And, oh yeah...I've already started on chapter 5

Sandi

[Willowtree252]

ohhhhh cant wait.

[umgaynow]

The only problem I forsee is that I seem to have to hit submit like 10 times before I can post just a one line thing on this board...posting a whole chapter ought to be interesting...don't want to experience that type it all and lose it thing again...ah well, I suppose there's always copy and paste to be safe...still sucks though...does anyone else have this problem of having to submit a zillion times before not getting the invalid, try again message?

Sandi

[umgaynow]

Title: Speaking To Silence chapter 4
Author: Umgaynow/Sandi
Disclaimer: Willow, Tara etc. are all property of Mutant Enemy and Joss the Weenie...to say I don't own shit would be the understatement of the century
Summary: The weirdness continues...featuring Angsty McAngstPants...you've been warned
Rating: R for language...COUNT THE F-BOMBS! Turns out that Willow chick is quite the little potty mouth when she's been kidnapped, beaten and emotionally traumatized
Note: All internal Willow babble is in quotes as if she were speaking aloud...because it just looks freaking weird if it isn't...can't use italics for thoughts cuz I need those for emphasis...I make my own rules!! Hahahaha


Speaking to Silence Chapter 4


The agonized cries issuing from the back of the rig surely would have set the hair, of any creature within earshot, sturdily on end. Pulling the wagon to a halt alongside the desolate road, the hermit cautiously climbed down from the seat; the meager light from an impotent lantern scarcely piercing the enveloping blackness. A pale trembling hand briefly ventured out from beneath the voluminous cloak, giving the mare a few calming pats on the nose in passing.

"It would have to be a new moon tonight, wouldn't it Hippolyta?"

When the wagon's unfortunate cargo came into view, the poor wretch was thrashing about frenziedly and howling in pain, attempting to affect an escape in her delirium. Gently guiding the traumatized young woman down to her bed of straw, the pale hand appeared once more, stroking at a fevered brow and brushing back clumps of muck-matted hair to reveal the face of panic.

"Hush...hush, good madwoman...I mean ya no harm...be still now...be still..." the voice whispered.

Almost immediately, the piteous creature ceased struggling and turned her attention to her rescuer. As she raised her head, focusing a feral gaze on the shape before her, two pairs of eyes met and held each other for the first time.

"Oh my...such lovely eyes," the hermit gasped, "As green as leeks..."

Presently, just as suddenly as it had stilled, the girl's broken body shuddered violently and collapsed, as though some invisible hand had pulled all her bones out at once. She groaned dejectedly, anguished keening cries in a tongue foreign to the ear, then mercifully fell once again into the cool embrace of unconsciousness.

Willow's POV

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWW!!

For the second time in far too recent memory, Willow woke to the terrifying sound of hoofbeats. This time however, the noise was accompanied by a pain so all-consuming that the redhead could do nothing but scream. There was the scent of fresh hay and the jostling of wheels traveling over an unpaved road, but the night was so impenetrably black that had her hand literally been in front of her face, she would not have been able to see it, let alone where she was.

"OY FUCKING VEY! What fresh hell is this?!? Where in the frilly heck am I?!? And oh yeah...while I'm on the subject OW! I mean FUCKIN'OW! Compared to this, the time that Gnarl ate my tummy skin like string cheese was a fucking paper cut...how the hell did I get here anyway? What happened? Hmmmmmmmm...do I remember what happened?"

"Let's see was there a castle? And a horse...and...AMY! That skanky little rat-ass bitch! I bet Amy made the horse attack me!"

"No...that's not it...was there a...a renaissance faire?"

"Oh...oh God no...there was...and then he...he ripped my...Oh God...no...NO! "

"No, Willow...it was just a nightmare...right? It had to be...this isn't real...I'm gonna wake up any second...yup...any time now...um...OK...not so much with the waking...FUCK ME...this is not good...this is sooo not good."

"Come on, Rosenberg...think! Use that enormous grey matter that you're so famous for! Remember...we need data retrieval here...OK now...oh...Wait! That's it..."

"I was...I was...floating? And then I...I was...in her arms."

"Oh God...Tara Did I see Tara? Was she here?"

"No...of course not...I was hallucinating...from the pain...that's all...Tara's gone."

"It wasn't real, Willow...it couldn't be...accept it...you're fucked."

"But I could almost swear...and I saw...those eyes...her eyes..."

"Oh...Tara...Tara!...Tara!!...TARA!...TARA!!...TARA!!!"


The redhead struggled to get up, "I have to find her...have to be sure...must find Tara...NOW!"

"YEEEEEEEEEEEEOOOOOOOOOWWWWWW!!!"

"OK...entirely new experience in pain here...FUCK ME!"

"Oh c'mon...don't be a pussy, Willow...hehe, pussywillow...you can do this...breathe...just breathe...that's it...you're supposed to be this big scary monster fighting dyke, remember? Big bad, too...you killed a guy without even touching him...now that's willpower...hehe Will power...OK...delirium approaching at warp 5, captain...NO...shake it off, Rosenberg...you can do this...you're already on your belly...half way there...now just get up on your hands and knees...think butch thoughts, and..."

"AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!! FUCK!!! "

"Breathe, Willow...just breathe...alrighty...let's just try for hands then...FUCK!"

"SHITFUCKDAMNCUNTPISSMOTHERFUCKERCOCKSUCKERBOLLOCKS!! FUCK ME!! PAAAIIIIIIINNNNNN!"

"Oh my...maybe if I just try to roll a little bit...OW OW OW OW OW!! Oh and did I mention FUCK!?!? Cuz I really think it bears repeating...oh...man this sucks!"

Then suddenly, both the horsefeet and the bumpiness stopped. A few moments later, bouncing and the sound of old wood groaning followed. Also, a speck of light so dim that it could just as easily have been a lightning bug as a lamp. Soon, Willow felt a pair of gentle hands guiding her down, stroking her forehead and a soft, husky voice speaking soothing sounds into her ear.

"Hey! Pushy much?!? OK...OK, I'll lie down if that's what you want...Jesus! But enough with the freakin' whispering already...what's up with that? Speak up for Gaia's sake! At least then I might be able to tell what gender you are...not that it really matters, I suppose...better yet, why don't you take off that stupid hood? What's up with all this mysterioso crap?"

I mean you no harm...

"Well, that's good to know...no harm...always a good thing...we like no...hey! Who are you calling a madwoman?!? Whatever! If I could just catch a glimpse...yeah, that's it...bring that light a little closer...I need to see you...I have to know...I could have sworn I saw...Oh God...those eyes..."

"Tara?" Nobody else has eyes like that...nobody.

"Baby?"

With no small ration of pain or effort, Willow craned her neck, trying to steal another glance at her savior.

"Crap...of all the nights for there to be no moon...I mean there's always a moon...you just can't see it when...and then of course...the environmental factors and conjunction of...Oh Goddess...could it really be her?"

"Those eyes...those deep endless blue eyes...you could drown in them...I did once..."

"NO! It can't be...SHE'S GONE...I saw them put her in the ground ...but..."

"With the day I've been having...I mean...anything is possible, right? Lord knows I saw my share of fucked up shit on the Hellmouth...and I don't just mean Xander's wardrobe...and yes, since you asked I am the kettle today...Hey! I have style...it's just, well...kind of quirky...pardon me for being an individual..."

"FUCKING SHEEP! DESIGNER KNOCKOFF WEARING LITTLE SHEEP! BLONDES, MAN!

"OK, that would be the delirium kicking in again...now what was I doing? Oh..."

"Tara? Baby? Is that you, sweetie?"

"I've only ever seen one pair of eyes like that...and yes, I know I said that already, but...it just has to be h...an old man!"

SHIT! FUCK! DOUBLE SHIT!

"YEEEEEOOOOOOOOAAAAAARRRGGGHHHHHHH!" the redhead howled in anguish.

"Oh baby...I'm so sorry...Oh God, Tara...I miss you so much...Tara...my love...my...I know I don't deserve you, baby...I've done things...unforgivable things...I'm a fucking murderer...I don't get the happy ending...I know that...but please, baby...please...I need you...Tara...come back to me...please...save me."

Willow sobbed uncontrollably, huge wracking cries, her shoulders heaving seismically, sending a river of pain down her back. She fell. Hard.

Then, for one brief instant...just before she passed out...she felt something familiar...something tingly...magic.

TBC...sorry it took so long

[masterjendu]

I suppose a self-DIBulatory pat on the back is in order!

Thank you so much for updating this wonderful story, Sandi. It has a lot of potential and your writing style is very entertaining. The story is actually quite dark but the way you've written Willow's inner ranting lends a lot of humour to what must be a majorly frightening ordeal. The genius of it all, though is that the humour doesn't take away from what Willow is going through...we are all still feeling her anguish. I hope you keep it up!

Jen

[writerfreak]

Wow, totally loving the dialogue in this, great update. I missed this fic, great to see it back on the board. Good job.

writerfreak

[umgaynow]

Come on kittens...you know I'm a huge feedback whore...you're killing me here <cutesemi-butchpout>

Sandi

[Willowtree252]

Then, for one brief instant...just before she passed out...she felt something familiar...something tingly...magic.

Oh my god this is on the edge reading more soon you are on the fast track now please I am begging I love this Sandi