Author name - Axel Avalon
Email Address - axelavalon8724@yahoo.com
Rating - PG ( rating my increase as the story goes on)
Disclaimer - I don't own any of the characters from Buffy The Vampire Slayer.
Spoiler- This story place sometime after the break-up in season 6, everything after Tabula Rasa is going to not happen in this story. The whole Rack thing isn't going to happen
Feedback- Of course I'd love to know what you think
Summary- A few months after the events of Tabula Rasa Willow makes a decision.
Notes- Yeah I'd like to thank the Avalons (especially Lex and Isaac)
Sunnydale, 2002
'I really hate this room.' Tara sat looking around at the plain white walls of what was now her home. She sat on her bed trying to study for her Psych test but for some reason her thoughrs kept drifting to other subjects. 'I wonder what Will is up to.' She thought back to her meeting with the redhead at the Magic Box a few days before. 'She looked so lost and alone.' She was pulled out of her thoughts by ringing of her phone. She reached to pick it up expecting to hear Dawn's voice on the other end.
"Hello," she said into the phone.
"Tara it's Buffy."
"Buffy? H-Hi is everything okay." she stuttered slighty already expecting the worse.
"No. Tara when was the last time you spoke to Willow?" came the slayers rushed reply.
"A c-couple of d-days ago a-at the Magic B-Box. But why..."
"Did you two have an arguement or something?" Buffy asked sounuding more than a little shaken up.
"No, Buffy what's going on?'
"Tara you need to get over here now. Willow has spent the last few days locked in her room she hasn't eaten or anything. A few minutes ago I went up to see if she would talk to me. I walk into the room and she had clothes everywhere. Tara she was packing, she says she's leaving."
"I'll be there in a minute." she hung up he phone and grabbed her jacket.
Buffy paced in front her fornt door waiting for Tara to arrive. 'I did the right thing. I mean she has a right to know. And Will was just going to leave without telling her so I did the right thing.' She was startled away from her thoughts by a blur of bonde that came rushing througgh the door at that minute.
"Where is she?" Tara asked. She watched as the slayer simply pointed up the stairs.
"What are you doing?" Tara asked from the door way of he old room. She had been standing there for a good five minutes letting the reality sink in that the love of her life was planning to leave, and from the looks of it she wasn't planning on coming back anytime soon.
"I should've have know that Buffy would call you." Willow mumbled without turning around.
"Willow, what are you doing?" she asked more forcefully.
Willow glanced over her shoulder briefly before answering curtly. "Packing."
"Odviously, why?" Tara asked not sure why this was suddenly making her angry.
"Because I'm leaving." Willow said keeping her answers short and to the point.
"Why are you leaving, when will you be back?" Tara asked.
"I'm leaving to get a change of scenery." Willow finally turned around and actually looked at her ex-lover.
"When will you be back?" she asked again a hint of panic creeping into her voice at the redhead's odvious avoidance of her second question. "Are you even planning on coming back?" she asked in suddenly small voice.
Willow stared at the blonde before answering in a cold, tight voice. "No."
Tara felt like someone had just punched her in the stomach, standing there watching Willow pack she hadn't even considered the possibility of the slim woman not coming. She tried to think of something to say, anything that might get the redhead to stay. "But, why?"
"Because it's easier."
"Easier than what?" she asked trying to keep her voice steady.
"Easier than staying here, I just need... to get away." Willow answered cursing the emotion that crept into her voice.
"Permently?"
"Yes"
Willow continued placing articles of clothing into her bags as they lapsed into a heavy silence.
"Were you even going to say good-bye?" Tara whispered, her voice strained because ofthe tears she was fighting to hold back.
"Would you have opened the door?" she asked.
Tara just looked at the redhead as if she had lost all her sanity. "Willow are you leaving because of me and what happened between us?" she asked incedulously.
"Tara there is no us?" she said without stopping her packing.
"There coud be." Tara said in a lost child-like voice.
Willow stopped and looked at the woman standing before her thinking how easy it would be to just believe what the vision of beauty was trying to hint at. She shook her head trying to get her courage up to do what she had to. "No there can't. One, because you dont trust me and two, I don't trust me. I would rather die than hurt you again. But as much as I don't want to hurt you, I can't stay here anymore."
"Hurt me? Willow do you hear yourself you're going to leave. Everybody need you here. I need you here." Tara finally lost the battle against the tears that were now flowing freely down her face.
"No, you don't."
"Willow please, don't do this." she watched as Willow picked up the smallest bag and walked towards her.
"Tara," Willow reached out to wipe away some of the tears streaming down her ex-lovers cheek. "If you ever need me you will know how to find me. No matter what it is, ok?"
Tara simply nodded her head realizing that no matter what she said her love was leaving and she wasn't coming back.
"Good-bye Tara." Willow picked up the bag and left the room without looking back. Downstairs she stopped briefly o let buffy know that she would send for the rest of her stuff.
Tara watched out of an upstairs window as Willow hopped into a small blue car and pulled away. "Goddess what have I done."
TBC
So what did you think, the next update willl be up as soon as possible.
Lex
- - - - - - - - The greatest human accomplishment is being able to go to ones grave knowing that at some point in your life you loved someone completely............... that and that you had some good fucks.
at: 5/8/04 3:54 am
is Willow doing?!
...doesnt she know that it gets harder and harder, no matter where she is living? 
..God, I hope Tara goes after her. Love sam xx 
I'm really enjoying it though. nice and angsty. update soon please 
they havent seen each other for 5 
oh better not crashing my computer, otherwise i wont read ur great updates anymore
But first I would like to thank the Kittens who have left feedback for my story. And they are: wimpy0729, CEsgirl13, Spikeizmine87, Pipsberg, xeembiote, WillowPowered, Stroke of Luck, Drumbly, sam darls, LizPuRR, justkazy, bijoux2, lazylurker, DreamsToDreams, and TaraBaby77.
Also I'd like to thank all the Kittens who dropped in and read but haven't left feedback. (we love the lurkers) 
BWR
