glad you liked it TheWhiz. it was fun to write. much play with words yes?
but at any rate i am offering up something else written between the last two. more angst, kind of just sorrowful. you know, seeing but not being able to have.
it's strange to me
the only thing i have ever known
that was stronger than my heart
and your heart
is glass.
think:
what, besides me and you,
can show me who i am?
what can mock me
what is so honest
what is so cruel?
i looked into the mirror on the wall
i asked who was the fairest of them all
it told me you
and it was true.
think:
how is it i am kept from you now?
i see you as well as, or better than,
i ever have;
and i am not in hiding
though you seem to be
almost ducked behind the drapes
as you always were to them
and newly to me;
and my view is not distorted
as my love is not distorted
as your purpose is not distorted.
think:
what can let me see you, and love you
but not love you?
my heart can and does
your heart can and does
like a window can.
think:
the way i can see
the truth in me and you
the way i see myself
the way i can see
still know, and love
the way i can speak, and give and take warm tones
but i cannot hear your thoughts and i cannot touch
i cannot touch-
god, how i miss those small things-
it's all just like glass.
the mirror that can't lie
the window that gives me some, but denies me most.
it is your heart- it's just glass.
you give me some part, lovely as before
and deny me all the good, the warmth
the touch, the reaching of hands.
my lips on the window,
knowing i could shatter it
and sure i cannot do it
for it isn't right or noble.
i let you go your way
my lips on the window,
whispering the sweet things you loved,
mouthing the hard words i've learned since then.
my fingertips writing your name,
my palms calling you to me,
so still for one so restless.
i can see you,
all you are
all your beauty
and you let me, let me look, let me remember
torture from the glass
your heart
that keeps you out of reach
Willow: "Those darn Salem judges. With their less-satanic-than-thou attitude."
Tara: "Oh, honey, let's change it. The Discovery channel has koala bears."
Il est dit, elle me tient.