back up, what's that? yeah, i'm in trouble alright. 
on the upside, i'll be updating fairly regularly now that i'm sorta back on track. thanks for all the amazing feedback... individual replies will follow this. sorry this part's kinda short and cliffhangy yet again. what can i say, i'm evil. to redeem myself, i promise i'll update soon. anyway, enjoy.
disclaimer and summary in part 1. thoughts in italics.
The door flung open at the frenzied knocking and Willow flung herself on Tara, effectively knocking them both on the floor. Without hesitation, her movements unencumbered by logic now, Willow leaned in, almost predatory fashion with the need to suffuse Tara with her love. And then the kiss happened. Neither knew who instigated it; whose breath fluttered against the sensitive skin first, who closed the distance between lips. Tentatively, Tara became more responsive, her lips gliding deftly over the other girl’s, tormenting the redhead with want. Willow answered with soft touches on Tara’s sides, delivering tender expressions of affection, fanning the growing embers of desire.
Where is she? Willow opened her eyes. That had been one of the countless possibilities she wanted to happen. Here she was, still knocking, praying that the barrier to her heaven would open soon. She’s probably out. Embarrassed, she cradled her fist, noticing for the first time how bruised it felt. How long have I been knocking?
And suddenly, her heart knew Tara was approaching. It always bounced joyously in her chest whenever the blonde was around. It was doing that now. In slow motion, Willow turned her head to an empty hallway. And then there she was... so beautiful beyond belief. There wasn't much light apart from the harsh flourescent above, but Tara was luminescent. Willow's breath was arrested in her chest. She's smiling. She's so beautiful when she smiles. Her eyes misted just looking at this goddess who was always so oblivious to her own beauty. Tara I love you. The words threatened to burst from her being. She could feel them wrenching from her soul. It left her lightheaded as the words swam in her blood in pursuit of a way out, in search of the very person who needed to hear them. Still, she kept quiet, mesmerized. She wouldn't have been able to turn away had she wanted - which she didn't. Not at all. Willow was quite happy just watching the love of her life do something so simple as walk up the stairs.
That was when her world crashed and burned before her eyes. One second, she had that goofy grin plastered on her face. Next, she was ready to cry and bolt again. There she was, Tara, smiling like an angel. Standing right beside her was Brian. It took her longer to process that Tara was smiling because of whatever Brian was saying. That's supposed to be my smile. Willow's heart raged against the scene before her. Her mind had concluded the worst. Pain rippled through her body and reflected on her eyes.
As if sensing her distress, Tara's attention was pulled towards Willow. She watched as Tara blinked, disbelieving what she saw. Blue eyes closed and remained so for a few seconds. And then one word came out- broken, soft as a whisper, but pleading to be real. "Will?"
Willow wanted to scream, It's me! I'm here! All that came out was a loud sigh and a small whimper brought on by the new onslaught of tears. Those sounds were all Tara needed to reaffirm that she wasn't dreaming and she ran, ran straight to Willow without even opening her eyes. Brian was now forgotten, the whole world existed elsewhere. Everything else was transposed far away, everyone else was insignificant. Willow. There was only Willow. She ran with her senses all attuned to Willow, her legs bringing her closer and closer, faster and faster and still she kept her eyes closed; afraid it would yet be another mirage. She couldn't stop her body from crashing against the redhead, but the pain was short-lived and arms instantaeneously engulfed her. Only when she felt Willow's heat surrounding her, Willow's breath against her cheek, Willow's arms wrapping her tightly and Willow's tears mingling with her own did she allow her eyes to open. She gazed at the redhead's face and finally released the breath she had been holding.
Words bubbled up inside Willow, but she forced them down, swallowing hard, breathing fast. She was hoping the oxygen would drown them out in her noisy brain. This wasn't a moment for talk and she fought hard to remain in Tara's embrace. She was afraid that words would break through the haze of emotions and bring Tara in the reality of the situation. And the reality was that her return didn't deserve this welcome. Just a few minutes more. Please. I don't think she'll ever hold me like this again. She would have prayed to every diety she knew by name, and that was quite a list, just to prolong the embrace but Tara had already loosened her grip.
The blonde opened her mouth to say something and a shiver swept through Willow's frame. Tara had just spoken the words Willow feared the most. "Will, we need to talk."
and let the girls talk. Will shouldn't be so worried about Tara's statement.....could be a good thing or even a great thing 
Great update cinderlust. 
erhm. didn't think it was that cliffhangy... uhm, no monsters, no danger, just 2 women who need to get with the program quickly. hehe. 
i promise it won't take this long for the next update. 
me for the cliffhanger! thank you! hope you enjoy the latest installment.
you and your notes. hehe. so cute. i still write a lot of them. makes my girlfriend smile, so why stop, right? 
sorry. there's another one coming up. ulp.
Despite my huge and relatively successful efforts to distract myself from studying they ended up going pretty well 
at: 2/16/03 3:02:52 am
(it actually takes some of the fun and suspense away 
) 
Talk now!!!!!
". So now you have to make it up to me 
, pleeeeeeaaaaasseee 
I'm calm now. 
. And the Tara came with this Brian, then I was 
i promise a happy ending! things should be looking up... i swear!
