This is the first time I post here. Please be nice with me.
I do not any of the characters, it´s just my thoughts.
Any reply, yes please, and you can also send them to my e-mail address. twe@sinectis.com.ar
Now, let´s see what we have...
Your eyes.
Your eyes. How I love your eyes. Blue like the sky when is shining. The kind of blue, the kind of eyes one could live in forever. I see your eyes and I know I am alive. How I miss to see your eyes! I can not believe what I did, I can not believe how fool I was, I can not believe you are not here because of me.
But now I see you, and I see me.
Us, together. Us, apart.
You, with me. I, alone.
Tara, my love. How I love saying your name. How I love to have that word "Tara" in my mind. It feels so good, so calming. If I could just tell you how sorry I am, how blind I was. If I could just tell you how I felt today when we met at the Espresso Pump. we talked, you listened, you observed me. We smile, I fell in love again.
It was a good thing, us together again. I have missed you so much, I have been so alone, I have felt so alone.
I wish you could just be here right now. I am trying to study, to focus, but how can I do that if you are not here by my side, how can I.
I miss your eyes, seeing them again. Seeing you, that is what I miss.
And now I can really see you here, in front of me. I see your eyes, your look somewhere I don`t seem to know.
Why are you here? I don`t understand. Have you came to say goodbye? Are you for real?
But you are still here. Speaking. Thing are broken I hear you say, but I don`t seem to follow you. I can only hear your voice.
You are here, in our room, I just want to hold you. i was hoping to see you again this week, but I didn`t have to wait. Have you heard my call? You look so sad, so concerned, so full of doubts, of fears.
"Time", you say. Do we still have it?
Suddenly, silence took place between you and me. You spoke, I hardly listened. You are coming to me, you are closer than before, down on your knees between my legs. You are looking at me, studying me, my face, my eyes, trying to read me.
"Why are you here?"
"I needed to see you, Will"
"Why?"
"Do you want me to leave?"
"After seeing you today I was all day thinking about you, and now you are here. How could I ever want you to leave?"
"I know"
"I am sorry, so very..."But she puts a finger in my lips, "Shh... don´t say it".
But I have to tell her. "Let me..." She looks in my eyes, she waits.
"I don´t know why I hurt you. I know 'sorry' is not enough. I´ve done things I can´t change, but I want to make it up to you. I know I can". "It´s ok" she says. Her voice mixed with pain and forgiveness.
"It´s not ok Tara, I´ve hurt you, badly. I know you were right. I should have stopped, but I just couldn´t or didn´t want to. Now I can say I don´t need magic to live, to be someone, to be important. I am someone, you make me important and real". I take your hands, and I look right into your eyes. I can see tears and love.
Silence took the moment. Both of us looking at each other, hearts beating fast, waiting for the next second to pass...
"I miss you Willow, my Willow..." "I miss you too baby". Silence again. Tears coming in waves. Never breaking eye contact I talk. " I can´t make it on my own anymore. Everything that I looked for in my life is you, I don´t want to be apart from you anymore. It kills me every day, waking up alone". I bent my head, I can´t see her in the eyes. I am so ashamed.
Suddenly I feel your hand in cheek, caressing me. You lift my head and make me look in your eyes again. "That´s why I am here, I don´t to be apart from you either".
Am I hearing this? Is this real? it has to be.
So I take my chance, ever so slowly I take your face in my hands, and I kiss your forehead, then your right eye, then your left one, then the tip of your nose and I stop. I look at you, your eyes closed. You open them, we look at each other, finally I take your lips between mines. And we kiss, and we kiss.
Parting I hear you say:
"I have come"
"I have washed away my tears"
"Today I´ve heard a song, our song. I´ve read some old letters, I wrote one, I´ve missed you".
"Yesterday I wanted to make you happy, you didn´t let me..."
"I´ve said, you didn´t hear, you didn´t want to hear..."
"I would have loved you to hold me back that day when I left, but instead, you let me go".
"Tonight I came to look for love, to give you love. Instead, you gave it to me, even when I didn´t ask for it".
"Tonight you gave back life to my hug, to my heart, my desire... we are alive again".
"Right now we are longing to feel again"
"My body aches for your touch"
"I have come"
"I have tried"
"We are true".
And like a prayer I hear you say. "Make love to me Willow, make love to me all night".
And I did, we did. I am complete again, we are. I will never be apart from her, we will never be.
Well that´s all. I hope you have enjoy it.
Thanks for reading.
CECILIA
at: 12/15/03 4:18 pm