Last Update, The Final Chapters!
Tulipp - I wanted to write around Tara's death. I accept the fact that she's dead, but I don't have to like it.
mollyig - Don't worry, she's okay.
tommo - I've been with my partner a long time. We've seen the worst in each other, but we've always stood by one another, no matter how hard it was. Trust is one of the foundation blocks in any relationship, sometimes it is betrayed, but we make mistakes. After all, we're only human.
MissQuirky- Nope, not yet.
Loco2 - I always felt that Willow had tremendous magical power, even Tara said so in 'Hush' and in 'Once More With Feeling'. I wanted to see how far I could take this.
ezGirl - Glad you liked it! Sorry for the angst, but I promise, it all ends well!
Chapter 18
Willow looked about warily. She was in another dimension, possibly in the Sorceress’s own sick and twisted world. It was bright here, but not blindingly so. Tortured landscapes flashed past, paused, then flashed by again. Willow ignored the distraction, concentrating instead on the source of magic that flowed around her. Then it stopped and she stood in the shadow of a towering peak that knifed into the sky, casting pillars of darkness across the desolate land. All around her the land was empty, void of life, a barren wasteland. Nothing moved on its surface and no sound broke the stillness in the air. She gazed at the scene with an odd detachment before her gaze traveled up the ragged structure into the desolate sky above.
Lifting her arms, she carried herself upwards and landed on a prominent balcony high in the tower. She walked inside and the Sorceress turned to face her with black eyes that hid something evil. She was cloaked head to foot in robes the color of damp ashes and held an oddly twisted rod made of weathered wood by her side. Willow half-closed her eyes and gathered her powers within. Her body tingled as her power intensified and when she opened them, they shone darkly and deceptively placid.
Willow channeled her power into threads of fire and thrust them at the Sorceress. The Sorceress was caught by surprise when her robes burst into flames. She uttered a few words and the fire was vanquished.
With a flurry of hands, the Sorceress hurled a volley of fireballs at Willow. Moving quickly, Willow ducked and uttered a spell. An invisible barrier slid into place in front of her and the fireballs merely bounced off and disintegrated into piles of ashes.
The Sorceress grinned weakly. “You surprised me.”
“Oh, I’m full of surprises.” Willow mocked. “You’re draining. Opening and closing that portal requires enormous power.”
Her arms shot forward and a blast of wind hit the Sorceress, lifting her into the air and up against the cold stone wall. She came crashing down and the staff fell from her hands, rolling across the wooden floor. Both women had brief eye contact with each other before scrambling after the scepter. They collided in their haste and went down in a tangle of arms and legs. Willow got to her feet first but the Sorceress grabbed her by the ankle, tripping her.
The Sorceress reached the scepter and brandished it before Willow threateningly. Eyeing the glowing tip of the staff warily, Willow backed away. Chuckling, the Sorceress swung the staff in an arc intending to hit Willow over the head, but the young witch ducked, tossed herself to the floor, and out of the way.
Gasping for air, the Sorceress pointed her staff at Willow and the stone in the tip glowed brighter. Energy arced from the stone and struck Willow, lifting her from the floor and tossing her against the far wall. Landing on her stomach, she grunted when the air was forced from her lungs. She lifted her head and looked over at the Sorceress with glittering eyes and picked herself up.
Angry now, Willow folded the space between herself and the Sorceress. One moment she was standing across the room and then the next, she was in front of the woman and they grappled for the staff. Magic energy arced and flowed around them from the scepter. Snarling, Willow pushed the Sorceress backwards and pinned her against the wall with the staff across her neck, choking her, until her body went limp like a rag doll. Unconscious, her body slid down the wall into a crumpled heap.
Drained and exhausted, Willow sat down heavily, the staff resting across her leg, and for a moment, she was sane. She uttered a plea before succumbing to the dark insanity that stole over her once again.
“Tara… bring me home.” She whispered.
Chapter 19
Tara, chanting in Latin, knelt on the floor and drew the last connecting line in the pentagram. Dawn walked around and they held out their candles for her to light. Buffy, her face pensive, stood looking out the tall window, a knee propped on a bench that sat underneath. Xander and Lady Elayne sat on the corners of the desk, each absorbed in their own thoughts. Tara looked up suddenly when she heard Willow’s voice in her mind, calling out to her. A coldness crept into her chest and she put her hand over her heart as if the warmth from her flesh could ward away the chill. Her lover’s voice was weak but in that split second she felt the darkness; forbidding, strong, and probing for weaknesses in her mind. Instinctively, her power awoke and sought it out, but then it was gone.
“Willow…” she whispered. She pulled her attention back to the small group who looked at her questioningly. “We have to get her… now.” She said, the urgency in her voice spurring everyone into action.
They scrambled to their positions around the pentagram and set their lit candles down in front of them. Tara held a deck of special cards in the palm of one hand and with the other, she set on top of the deck. Unlike tarot cards, these cards were triangular in shape and specifically made for the ritual they were about to perform.
“Ophelia, hear my plea…” She began.
“Evil of old rises anew, the veil of blackness from whence it came,”
“Evil of old, release my love, the one whose heart you do not hold,”
“Ophelia, return my love to this realm, to the one who’s heart she holds,”
“Evil of old, return to the realm from whence you came, and never to return.”
“This I command in the name of Ophelia…”
She looked down at the deck in her hand and picked up the top card. She turned it over and placed it on the floor by her candle.
“The Sorceress.” She whispered.
She handed the next card to Xander who placed it by his candle.
“The Paladin.” He said.
It was Buffy’s turn and she took the card Tara offered, placing it next to her candle as well.
“The Savior.” She whispered and looked over at Dawn.
Dawn took a deep breath, and set down her card.
“The Light.” She said, her eyes widening in surprise, and Buffy glanced at her sharply.
Lady Elayne reached for her card, turned it over and placed it on the floor next to her candle.
“The Changeling.” She murmured. She looked up at Tara and smiled. “Perfect. The cards know to whom they belong, and it has been done.”
A burst of light flared from the center of the pentagram, blinding them. The brightness intensified and they lifted their arms to shield their eyes against it. Finally it faded, and Willow lay there, curled into a fetal position, panting and shaking with exhaustion. Lady Elayne’s spot was empty and they exchanged glances before Tara explained.
“They have been returned to the realm in which they belong.” She returned her attention back to Willow, watching her lover’s every movement, not sure if it was safe to approach her.
Willow pushed herself upright and then slowly stood up. Her dark eyes glittered and she looked at them warily. Xander started to push himself up and she reacted by swinging her head in his direction.
“No one move.” Tara cautioned quietly and then whispered, “El curto!”
A ring of orange light encircled Willow’s torso, forcing her to clamp her arms to her sides thus rendering her immobile. She looked at Tara in surprise and then with understanding. Her head fell forward and her eyes closed, as if she’d just gone to sleep.
Tara stood up and approached her bound lover.
“Will… Will, can you hear me?” She said softly.
Willow lifted her head and gazed into the calm blue orbs of her lover. Tara’s breath caught at the tortured look in Willow’s eyes.
“Tara?” She whispered.
“I’m here, Will.”
“I can feel you.” She looked down at the orange glow that encircled her. It was soft, gentle and warm. It was Tara. “It is you.” Her voice dropped to a whisper. The binding ebbed and flowed around her and she surrendered to the sensation.
“Will, what I have to do now…” Tara’s voice held a note of worry.
“I know… dangerous.” Willow struggled with her breathing and with the powerful magic within. “Tara… help me, please. Bring me back. I don’t want this. I want you.” Her eyes pleaded.
“I will. I promise.” Tara said and Willow could see the love shining in her blue eyes.
The seconds slipped away. This was not easy for either of them. They did not expect events such as this. For Tara it was frightening. It brought old feelings and memories long suppressed to the surface and she could feel her fear lurking in the back of her mind. She remembered the last time her mother touched her. It was irrepressible, dark, and something more, something undefinable and she shuddered at the memory.
Willow’s body jerked and her eyes turned cold.
“Witch! You think I don’t know.” Willow spat.
Tara backed up, her face a flurry of emotions.
“I know you don’t trust me. You may love me, but you don’t trust me not to violate you again. The only reason you came back was because you’re still in love with me,” Dark Willow paused to re-arrange her words. “I mean… with Willow. You feel safe with her, when she’s in a non-magical, mousy and ordinary way. How boring.” Her voice held a note of contempt and her lip curled in disgust. Tara had to admit that shadows of mistrust and betrayal often flitted across her mind.
“We’ve already talked about this, Willow.” Tara said evenly.
“I’ve just done some powerful magic…”The dark eyes bored painfully into Tara’s soul. “Are you going to leave me again?” Dark Willow spat bitterly but Tara’s expression was one of compassion and her eyes clouded with sadness.
“If it’s used for the wrong reasons, yes, and you know that. You know I’ve forgiven you and you’re right, I haven’t forgotten. You know why.” Tara said softly.
She remembered the evening they kissed and made love after a long separation. They talked for most of the night and Tara explained why Willow’s abuse of magic upset her so. Black magic was dangerous and Willow was putting her life on the line each time she summoned it. She lost more of herself and the addictive power could consume one’s soul, leaving behind an empty shell, a fragment of what the person once was. Willow also tried to bend and shape the world to her liking, just as her father did. It hurt to think that she wasn’t good enough and that Willow used magic to make their problems go away. That was no longer the case for they’d had a few heated arguments and disagreements since then. They also came to know and understand each other better. Where Willow was quick to react, Tara was calm. When Willow was unsure, she was confident. Together they were complete.
“Forgiven me?” Her tone was hard. “No. I sense the anger. You try to hide it but you can’t.”
Tara sighed and rubbed her forehead.
“Tara, what’s happening?” Dawn asked worriedly. She looked up at Willow’s dark eyes, glittering with the madness that reigned within.
“It’s all right, Dawnie. The Willow we know is still there.” Tara assured her.
“The Willow you know?” Dark Willow laughed. “You don’t know her, so stop lying to yourselves!” she mocked them. “Willow doesn’t even know who she is anymore.” She gave a short laugh. “Back and forth. Magic… no magic. Eenie, meanie, miny, moe.”
“The Willow I know cares about her friends. The Willow I know would kick your ass if she could!” Buffy snapped.
Dark Willow chuckled in amusement. “You’re missing the point. This Willow can kick YOUR ass. Hello! I’m part of her… don’t you get that?”
The tiny group looked at each other in understanding and shock, except for Tara who sighed resignedly and her brow furrowed.
“We get that, Willow.” Tara said. “Myself more than anyone.”
“Ah, now it’s sinking in. I’ve taken a life, I live so close to her heart, and that under the right circumstances I could become your worst nightmare.” She taunted them.
“And I could become yours.” Buffy stated flatly.
“Really? Testy aren’t we?” She commented.
“Yes. You don’t want to cross that line again. If you try, I’ll be there to stop you.” The Slayer warned.
“Always the Slayer. Protecting innocents from evil. I get that.” She paused and regarded Buffy. “You understand the darkness, don’t you Slayer?” She smiled coolly. “You know it’s there. You try to deny it and hide from it, but you can’t, can you? You’re both attracted and repulsed by the darkness.” Willow smiled cruelly and Buffy swallowed against the sting of the truth in her words.
Willow’s body shuddered. Her hair slowly changed back to the familiar red, her eyes turned green and a thin sheen of sweat covered her body. Her mind felt foggy and her eyes kept drifting closed. She was tired. Very tired.
“Tara!” She called out.
“I’m here, sweetie.” Tara answered calmly, wishing she could cradle her lover’s body in her arms and soothe away the pain that was mirrored in the haunted, green eyes.
“The Willow I know is special.” She paused. “The magic didn’t make you Willow, it’s a part of you, yes, but it was your essence, your heart, and your soul that touched and loved me. That’s the Willow I know and think about.”
Willow gritted her teeth and moaned in pain. Beads of sweat rolled down her face. Her body shuddered again.
“What’s going on?” Dawn asked.
“She’s draining.” Tara answered.
“She’s whating?” Xander said, bewildered.
“She’s expending energy, fighting the thrall of the magic. She’s trying to control the powerful magic inside her.”
“How long?” Buffy asked.
“I don’t know. We’ll just have to wait and see.” She turned to Willow and then she sighed and turned back. “We might as well get comfortable, I think it’s going to be a while.”
“You know, there’s a bit of déjà vu here, but I gotta say this. She really does look good in leather.” He said. Buffy shook her head in exasperation and she sat down on the couch. When she leaned back her eyebrows rose when she looked over at Tara. Tara was staring at Willow with pursed lips and a thoughtful look on her face.
Chapter 20
Tara stood by the stone hearth of the fireplace watching Willow doze fitfully. The fire crackled and popped, making her jump a little, but she welcomed it’s warmth.
Then Willow began twisting and turning, her face tormented. “No! Please…” She whispered.
Tara, hearing the anguish in her voice, was by her side instantly.
“Willow…” She whispered urgently, whishing she could touch her, but daring not to.
Willow’s eyes snapped open and she gasped.
“Oh god, Tara! I killed him. She placed the knife in my hand, and I cut his throat. My hands! Blood on my hands!” Tears streamed down her face and panicing, she struggled against the bind.
“Will!” Tara called out to her and then took a deep breath. “Will, look at me.” Her voice was calm and soothing. Willow stopped struggling and she looked over at her partner. Tara could see the sorrow, the shame, and the uncertainty in her lovers eyes.
“It’s over, Will. You’re safe now.” She said in a soft voice that communicated comfort and reassurance of her love for Willow.
“No! It’s not safe! You can’t be around me! I’m bad, very bad!” Willow knew that Tara didn’t know that the Sorceress had tried to seduce her, had touched and held her. Her face burned with shame and she looked away.
“Will… It’s over.” She reiterated calmly trying to comfort Willow with her soothing words..
“No, you don’t understand. I killed him. She was in my mind and I couldn’t stop her. I couldn’t stop myself. ” Willow began to sob. “Oh, god. And I let her touch me. Tara, I’m so sorry.”
A cold fist squeezed her heart, then she blinked and swallowed the bile that rose in her throat. “Will… listen to me. I love you. And I know you love me. We’ll work this out, but right now you have got to calm down, okay?” She moved so that she could look up into Willow’s eyes. Willow saw the love in Tara’s gaze and tears stung her eyes.
“Can you forgive me?” Willow whispered between sobs.
“Will, there’s nothing to forgive.” Tara answered in a soft voice and unspoken words hung in the space between them.
“Even after all this… the darkness and the pain.” Willow’s eyes were sad.
“Yes.” Tara nodded slowly, fighting back the tears.
“How can you?” Willow shook her head.
“Because we all hide what we don’t want others to see. It has nothing to do with magic.” Tara answered and Buffy looked over at her sharply.
Dawn watched, mesmerized by the display of loving devotion that the two women had for each other. She felt the extreme sadness in Willow’s voice and saw the torment in her eyes. Willow was broken, but with simple words, Tara expressed her love and made Willow whole again. Dawn’s eyes brimmed with tears and she swallowed the lump in her throat.
Buffy got up and approached her friend. Her skin crawled at Willow’s words and they continued to echo in her ears. Willow turned her head and saw the sorrow in Buffy’s eyes.
“I’m so sorry, Buffy.” Willow said tearfully and Xander came to stand by her side.
“Tara, can’t we do something?” she asked the blonde.
“Yes, we can.” Tara nodded solemnly.
She sat down in her chair and closed her eyes. As the minutes ticked by Willow’s breathing slowed, her eyes closed, and her face softened, almost as if she were at peace. Buffy and Xander looked from Tara to Willow and back again.
“Well, whatever it is she’s doing, it seems to be working.” Xander commented before shifting his gaze back to Willow, looking at his childhood friend tenderly. “You know, in a way she’s right. I don’t know her. I remember when she was just ‘Willow’, you know, she was so bright and airy in a funny way. She wore jumpers and saddle shoes, and brought her own lunches. Now look at her. What has she become?” Xander said, his eyes troubled.
“She’s going to be all right, Xander.” Buffy said and put a comforting arm around him
The Slayer looked sadly at her friend. She remembered too, the ‘innocent’ Willow. The shy girl who thought she was in love with Xander and had never been kissed. The girlish giggles, the fits of laughter, and the little eccentricities that were uniquely Willow. What she saw now was a girl who was blossoming into womanhood, been kissed and loved by a woman, and had become a very powerful witch. She shifted her gaze to Xander and took a deep breath. He was much bigger now, more manly, but the boy without a clue was still there. A small smile crept across her face and then quickly disappeared. Their view of the world changed dramatically when she arrived at Sunnydale and became a part of their lives. In one night she had managed to turn their lives upside down. She shook her head ruefully and reminded herself that this is what they wanted. They could have left Sunnydale for a normal life else where, but they chose to stay and help her fight the evil at the hellmouth. Buffy walked over to one of the tall windows and looked outside. The responsibility of being the Slayer weighed heavily on her shoulders, but keeping her friends alive weighed even more, but she couldn’t have gotten this far without them. She blinked in surprise. She was actually feeling something, sadness, regret, and love. She sighed and her breath fogged up the window.
Tara watched Buffy walk away and could tell that Buffy’s thoughts were tormented. She exchanged glances with Xander and they walked over to stand by the Slayer.
“You all right, Buff?” Xander asked making his tone light.
“Honestly?” She answered and turned to face them. “Not really.” The moonlight made her blue eyes translucent and she looked over at Dawn, sleeping on the sofa.
“Hey, she’s going to be okay.” Tara said and placed a calming hand on the Slayer’s shoulder and Buffy turned to look at her. She knew that Tara saw things that others didn’t. She also knew that Tara was only trying to console her and that behind the gentle eyes the blonde had much more to say but chose not to voice her concerns. So, Buffy spoke up for all of them.
“Is she?” Buffy shifted her gaze from Tara and Xander to Willow. “She’s been changed forever. When you kill someone, everything changes. I should know.” She said sadly.
“Buffy…” Xander started to say and Buffy raised her hands.
“No. This is all my fault. She’s the person she is today because of me.” She looked at Xander, tears brimming in her eyes. “Even you’ve changed because of me.” Her gaze traveled to Tara. “And you, Tara. Nothing has ever been the same since you’ve met me, has it?”
“No, but I met Willow and I have friends that I can trust with my life. You’re my family. I didn’t have that before.” She said and a corner of her mouth lifted into a small smile.
“Always the optimist.” Buffy returned her smile and they hugged.
“What are we going to do about Willow?” Xander asked shifting from one foot to the other and Tara gazed at him speculatively.
“We’ll have to talk to Giles and see if he can help her.” Buffy replied.
“I’m sure there’s a way.” Tara agreed.
“You know, Anya was right. If she hadn’t gotten so involved with magic in the first place, she wouldn’t be like this.” Xander blurted out.
“Xander…” Buffy tried to stop him.
“No, let him talk.” Tara interrupted.
“Okay, we were able to stop her this time, well actually, Tara stopped her this time. But what about next time? Tara, you can’t be with her twenty-four hours a day.” He paused to breathe and his eyes had a desperate look to them.
“You shouldn’t have left her when you did. You should’ve tried to stop her from going even further into this stuff.” Xander’s voice rose. The tension between Tara and Xander was so thick that one could cut it with a knife. “I didn’t know things were that bad. I thought you could get her under control. If I had known you couldn’t… if I had known that she was going to end up like this…” His eyes flicked over to Buffy and she shifted her gaze to the floor. She was guilty too. She heard the alarms going off in her head. At the time she was so absorbed in herself and was wallowing deeply in so much muck that she just didn’t have the energy to care.
Tara narrowed her eyes at Xander for an instant and then took a deep breath. She folded her arms under her breasts and when she spoke her voice was even.
“First of all, I have faith in that Willow will find a way to control the power within. And Giles may have information to help her. Secondly, Willow chose to use magic. It was her decision, not mine. Thirdly, you know we fought about her abuse of magic and when she continued to violate my trust, I felt it best for both of us if I left. That’s why I left.” Stung by the pain the memory brought to the surface, Tara turned away for a brief moment and then turned back. “Willow needed to find herself, get her priorities straight and I needed to get back in touch with myself. I didn’t want to leave, but staying with her was hurting both of us.” She stopped and walked up to Xander. “Willow’s a woman now, Xander. Her wants and needs are different from the girl you knew.” Her blue eyes stared into his pained ones.
Buffy raised her eyebrows. She had never heard Tara say so many words, but as usual, she hit every nail on the head.
Xander blinked and his mouth worked, trying to absorb this information. Tara’s face softened.
“Willow has come into her own, Xander. You can’t control what she chooses to do.” Tara said finally and rested her hand on his arm.
“Just as you have, Tara.” Buffy said and a surprised Tara, suddenly struck with the realization that someone noticed, nodded. Buffy sighed when she saw the frown on Xander’s face.
“We’re growing up.” She said, not sure if that helped clarify things for him.
Tara dropped her arms and turned her attention to Willow. She walked up to her lover and let her hands trace the outline of Willow’s body, releasing some of her essence so that Willow would know that she was still there. Tara could feel the shimmer of the binding around her.
Willow’s body shifted and she listened to Tara’s comforting words whispering to her in her mind. She concentrated and the fog lifted. An image came into focus and she relaxed. Tara was beneath the canopy of a willow tree, waiting for Willow to join her. The distance closed between them and then disappeared all together. Willow took Tara’s proffered hand and sat down at the base of the tree. Tara knelt in front of her and took Willow’s face in her hands. Her skin was soft and warm against her cool skin. She felt a light breeze drift across them and it lifted tendrils of Tara’s long hair, brushing the curls forward over her shoulders. Tara’s voice was hypnotic, almost musical.
“Breathe, Will, breathe.”
“Focus and look for the light.”
“Find it. Touch it. Feel it. Hold it.”
“Now pull it within and let it warm you.”
“Wrap yourself in the light and let it chase away the darkness.”
“You are my light.” Willow whispered and a calmness descended upon her. Even though she was sweating and her skin felt as if it were on fire, she shivered and her teeth chattered.
The hours went by and the sun rose, streaking the early morning sky with warm rosy hues. It’s rays fanned across the house and over the sleeping group, except for Tara, still in a trance and linked with Willow.
Buffy woke when the first rays of sun penetrated her eyelids and she stretched her cramped limbs, almost falling out of the sofa in the process. She looked over at Dawn who slowly opened her eyes and then yawned.
“What time is it?” The young girl asked.
“Almost seven.” Xander opened one eye.
“Xander, I need you to get a hold of Giles.” Buffy said.
“On it.” He replied, got up and left the room.
Buffy went to the window and looked outside. What she saw concerned her. The manicured lawn was now a myriad of grass, weeds and wildflowers. As time went by more and more of the estate was falling into a state of disrepair. It was as if an invisible line of disease was sweeping over the land.
Sensing her distress, Tara opened her eyes and pushed herself from the chair. She went to Buffy’s side, peered out the window and inhaled sharply.
“The estate was an illusion. Magic.” Tara said and Buffy fixed her gaze on the blonde witch.
“Then we need to get out of here.” Buffy suggested.
“Let’s take Willow home.” Tara agreed.
“I reached Giles. He’s on his way.” Xander rushed in and stopped abruptly.
“Buffy…” Dawn started.
When Buffy and Tara turned, the walls of the library began to shift and wink in and out of existence.
“Xander, we need to leave, right now. Let’s get Willow to the car.” Buffy said and he nodded silently as if she really needed to ask.
Buffy ran up to Dawn, wrapped her sister in her arms and steered her towards the doors of the library.
Tara walked up to Willow and looked into her lover’s face. Willow was gaunt and pale from exhaustion. She reached towards the circle of light with her fingers and when they touched, the circle of light dissipated. Willow’s body sagged and Tara held Willow’s slight frame in her arms. She laid her head on the small shoulder, one hand coming up to stroke the soft red hair. Willow leaned into her and was about to encircle her arms around Tara’s neck when Xander slipped his arms underneath and lifted the smaller woman, cradling her against his chest.
“Will, we have to leave now. I’ve got to get you to the car, okay?” He said tenderly and reluctantly, Willow draped her arms around his neck instead.
She found Tara’s eyes again with her own and determination burned in Willow’s face. Tara had saved her and stood by her through the insanity. She nodded at her partner in silent gratitude.
“I’m all right. A little shaky, but okay.” Willow said firmly. Her eyes were sad and Tara’s heart ached.
They exited the house and stopped on the driveway in shock. They glanced about uneasily. The once paved circular driveway was broken and rutted. Weeds and scrub littered the courtyard. The rose bushes grew wild, their thorny stems weaving around the crumbling fountain. The azaleas had turned brown and were hidden by tall grass and weeds. They followed the rutted pathway around the fountain to the rusting iron gates now hanging listlessly from broken hinges.
They turned at the sound of crashing stone. What they saw left them speechless. The house was literally coming apart before their eyes. The stone at the upper stories crumbled and the roof caved in. They could hear individual clay tiles bouncing and rolling across the debris. More stone crumbled and most of the walls fell in and they could hear the tinkling of glass as the windows shattered. An eerie wind picked up and brushed over the house and then all was calm once more.
“This reminds me of ‘The Wizard of Oz’. We’ve seen the wicked witch of the west and the good witch of the east.”
“Click your heels three times and repeat after me…” Buffy said.
“There’s no place like home.” Buffy and Xander said in unison.
“Really bizzarro.” Dawn said and threw one last look over her shoulder.
“So, with the apocalypse over, who’s in for a vacation?” Xander quipped.
Tara raised a brow and Willow opened an eye to give him one of her stares.
Dawn interlinked arms with Buffy and Tara while Xander and Willow moved on ahead. They stepped past the gates and walked towards Xander’s car. Dawn ran ahead and peered at the gas gauge in the dash.
“Xander, I think there’s gas now.” She commented.
Buffy opened the rear door and Xander tucked Willow into the seat while Buffy, Tara and Dawn got in. Tara pulled Willow close and the red head melded into Tara’s soft curves. Xander slid into the driver’s seat and started the car.
When Tara felt Willow squeeze her hand she looked down and saw apprehension mixed with fear in her lover’s eyes.
“I’m sorry.” Willow said and Tara sighed, hearing the silent question Willow left unspoken between them.
“You did what you had to. We’ll get through this.” She smiled slightly. “I’m not going anywhere.”
Willow almost exhaled with relief, but instead, gave Tara a weak smile and laid her head back down on her shoulder. Her world was changing and she didn’t know what kind of a place it was becoming. She took comfort in the fact that Tara would be a part of it.
Willow was no longer the innocent, nerdy little girl in the frumpy dresses with the plain face and long hair. She could feel the timid girl shrinking inside and she feared the woman that was emerging. Her idea of the world, of love and dreams had been shattered. Here, demons killed the innocent, people lied and betrayed one another, and love was never perfect. This was reality, this was the real world. But, in her dreams, the shy little girl still fantasized about a peaceful world, everlasting love, and a place where one was always safe. Suddenly, Willow missed the girl she used to be, way back when life seemed so new, and she didn’t have anything to hide. She squeezed her eyes shut, then opened them and blinked back tears.
“Giles should be here…” Buffy’s voice trailed off when the watcher’s red BMW pulled up along side. “… soon.”
“Giles, my man!” Xander greeted the Englishman.
“How is she?” Giles asked, peering at Willow in the back seat. Willow opened her eyes and smiled wanly at him.
“She’ll be all right.” Buffy answered and turned to exchange a glance with Tara and then looked over at Willow. Willow met Buffy’s gaze, and saw tenderness there. It had been years since she had last seen that kind of tenderness in the Slayer's eyes. Willow reached out impulsively and Buffy took one of her hands in her own.
Tears sprung to Tara’s eyes. She understood the darkness from which Willow came and had witnessed it now from two people she loved, first her mother, and now Willow. She knew it wasn’t over, there was much to be done. For the first time in a long time she was afraid. Afraid of losing Willow, again. She bent her head, kissed the soft red hair and a slow smile spread across Willow’s face. For a moment Willow forgot about the invisible, permanent scar upon her body and mind, and hugged Tara tight.
“Actually, I’m just very tired.” Willow spoke suddenly.
“All right. Um, why don’t you all go on home. I’ll be along shortly, but first, I want to take a look at what’s left of the estate.” He smiled and held up a camera. “This is incredible.” His smile faded. “And then we’ll talk about what happened.” He looked specifically at Willow before nodding and driving on.
“It was just another day for us.” Xander quipped and drove away.
THE END