FIC: Finding Me AU

[fidds]

great update!

(hee hee gotta love drunk willow)



*Hannah*

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I just needed someone to talk to, you were just too busy with yourself, you were never there for me to express how i felt ,i just stuffed it down- *STAIND -FADE*

[Lola19]

Aaawww so sweet.

That was a great update.

Of course Tara wouldnt hurt Willow. Silly, Silly Willow!

Again great update

Love and hugs

Lolaxxx

[ally02]

Steph - Thanks and the pissed Willow is kind of a reflection of my past expericences. Hmm anyway!



Ellie - Thanks, glad ur liking it a lot! U need to update urz soon Missy! And well, the fanfic is dedicated to u, so it should be kinda personal. Also dont worry bout smelly racheal or however she spells it - she is a stupid stupe stupe! Love u 2!



Hannah - Thanks and yes everyone loves drunk Willow. There should have been a lot more of it because when she was drunk - it was class!



Lola - I'm all with the sweetness! lol Willow can be very silly sometimes I agree. love and hugs 2 u also



love Aly xxxxxxx

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[witchbitchwillow]

awwww, thanx aly!!!



*everytime i . . . even when im at my worst. you always make me feel better, how do u do that?*



*magic*



i should be updating mine at some point when i feel a little more romantic and not on the berge of giving up on relationships all together and just choose to read about them instead. sorry im still feeling bitter and twisted. bloody flattered grrrrrrrrrr. okay im done.



love u x x x x

*thats me as a vampire im so evil and skanky and i think im kinda gay*

*no candles? well i brought one its extra flamey!*

[ally02]

Ellie - Awww great quote. Rememeber, strong like an amazon :'( I wish I had the blue!!! Ok dont get me started. Anyway, dont give up on relationships cos u will dissapoint a lot of women!! still love u xxxx



Jen - Drunk Willow is a bit cute, though the singing is a bit cringeworthy I imagine lol Thought id put in some smoochies before i post the next chapter and get shot! I am evil! lol

I'm still thinking of Amber's sassy eggs...for inspiration he he he



love Aly xxxx

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[witchbitchwillow]

okay, i won't give up just yet, but another i'm flattered and knowones going to stop me okay!!! i dont care if one of them was straight.



and dont get started on the quotes lol. *have fun at the fair* :'(

thats sooooooo sad, and u used to be relaly mean when u said that!!!! grrrrrs.



love and hugs.



x x x x ellie x x x x

*thats me as a vampire im so evil and skanky and i think im kinda gay*

*no candles? well i brought one its extra flamey!*

[ally02]

"Well I took psych 101.." well I take psych R2D lol

Doesnt have the same ring to it. Well if u give up on relationships - I am gonna walk all the way down there and give u a good slap. I meant in an across the face way but that came out kind of dodgy lol And dont go to the fair!! And yes that was mean...but u asked for it! lol



love, hugz and handcuffz (he he he)

Aly xxxxxxxx

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[Jennpurr]

Ooooh... ... Amber's sassy eggs. YUMMY!!!



Thank you so much for the smoochies. It made me very happy. Yes... I can imagine Willow singing would be cringeworthy... but I loved what she said. .. awww..



Eagerly awaiting more!



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson

[Lynz]

Yay! they made up, and out, heh! And yes, you are starting a Scottish revolution methinks. Let's see how many Scots you can get to 'come out'! - "yeah there's somethin i've been wanting to tell you, it's hard for me and I hope it doesn't change how you think of me, I'm.......*gulp* Scottish..."





Lynz

x x x x



ps - I'm not nuts(i think), just very special

[mollyig]

Willow is lucky that Tara didn't take exception to not being trusted. Tara realises that Willow is insecure, and so does her best to make her feel safe.



Willow's singing was funny!



So our girls in each others arms - as it should be!

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[Grimaldi]

just started reading this story and just wanted to say that its really good, can't wait to read more

Dude, we're surrounded by perverts!

Worm, are you ready to die in the cleansing apocalypse?

Your not respecting my boundaries

[jdcioffi]

Drunk, singing Willow and make-up sex -- what more could any kitten ask for?



Well, other than more, that is.



JD

"I smell the smelly smell of something that smells smelly!" (SpongeBob Squarepants)

[Miss1234Kitty]

Drunk Willow is... not all that different to usual Willow. Babbling's still there. Non-sense is still there. Bad dancing is still there. Lossa kisses - still there.



But we love her anyway. As does Tara, forever. Never mind ME what the heck do they know?



I'm loving this fic, it's so sweet and it's nice that Buffy is realising that she wasn't a brilliant friend to Will at the beginning of it and making up for it.



Gem

Tara: There's just so much to work through... and can you just be kissing me now?

[ally02]

Jen - Amber's sassy eggs deserve SO much more drool than that!! More soon I promise - but slightly hungover right now so maybe not that soon! lol



Lynz - lol its a step by step process. It takes time but most people learn to except it. just be strong! lol



mollyig - awww yeah they should be like that forever. *sigh* oh well just wait for the next chapter! lol *evil laugh* also - i had to download that Indigo Girls song because of the quote - its ace!!



Grimaldi - very glad u like the story and started reading it. hope u like the rest!



JD - lol yep im just a giver! lol u ask for more and more u shall have...when i decide to update lol



Gem - awww yeah...on her fluffy cloud - Tara will still love Willow *sniff* and ME no nothing I tell u!! grrr argh damn right!! Very glad ur loving this fic and i think Buffy had a lot to make up for.



Ok thanks for all the feedback everyone - u all rule the world. More soon I promise

love Aly xxxxxxxxxxxx

You cannot have more catnip! You have a catnip problem!

Edited by: ally02 at: 6/21/02 1:36:06 pm

[AmberBensonRockzMyWorld]

You Rock! I love the update. You are an extremely good writer. I can't wait for the next part.

Much Love,

Lisa

This is our Last Embrace, Must I dream and Always see your face.~ Jeff Buckley "Last goodbye"

[Jennpurr]

Quote:

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Jen - Amber's sassy eggs deserve SO much more drool than that!! More soon I promise - but slightly hungover right now so maybe not that soon! lol

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OH.... I agree. Much more drooling is involved. How's this:



And hungover can be a good and bad thing. Hope you feel better and I'll wait patiently for the update. Will there be more smoochies, involved? Cause I could wait forever, well not forever cause I wouldn't get to see them, but I'd wait that long for W/T smoochies.



Now you put all these mental pics of Amber into my head. Good God... I think I might just have a heartattack.



Jen

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"Alyson Hannigan is a frickin' amazing kisser."Amber Benson

Edited by: Jennpurr at: 6/21/02 9:11:54 pm

[Thanatopsis]

Even drunk, Willow is adorable, gotta love the singing, I can imagine her doing it all the way back to the dorm.

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Uh, um... various sounds of
hesitation...

[ally02]

Lisa - Awww im sooo touched. *sniff* And i rock which is ace!!! lol Gonna write the next part right now cos u have just given me motivation!



Jen - I think that might just be enough drool! Im not giving away any details of up coming smoochness! U will just have to wait for the next part..*evil laugh* Hmmm mental images of Amber Benson - thats what I had all the way through work! Dont have a heart attack otherwise u wont be able to read the story or post!!!



Thanatopsis - Willow is always adorable! lol



Right, going to update right now! Thanks so much for all ur replies, you all rule the world!



love Aly xxxxxxx

You cannot have more catnip! You have a catnip problem!

[pikescoob]

Great update!! Yeah, the morning usually brings feelings of regret when I think about what I did while drunk....but it always seems so cool while I'm doing it....lol.



--Michelle

[ally02]

lol yep I know what u mean. When ur drunk its like - woohoo look at me im dancing on a table how cool am I?! And in the morning its - what a twat I was dancing on that table....ok maybe that just my past experiences *cough* glad u liked the update.



love Aly xxxxxx

You cannot have more catnip! You have a catnip problem!

[ally02]

Thanks for all ur replies. Drum roll please.......chapter 4!!



Title – Finding Me Part 2



Chap – 4/?



Author name - Alyson Walker or Ally02



Email Address – alysonwalker@hotmail.com



Website – Plenty of Magic: www.plentyofmagic.cjb.net



Rating - PG-15 – this is kind of a risky chapter



Disclaimer – No spoilers unless Buffy goes really wacky and back in time! Some guy called Joss owns all the characters.



Feedback- Yes please! Don’t make me beg! Ok, I’m begging!



Summary- This is set in an alternate universe where Willow ended up moving away and meeting Tara. Now Tara has moved to Sunnydale with Willow.



Notes- I have a vague idea of where I am going with this story, but it may suck. I’m just going to see where it goes and hope for the best lol. Also finding it hard to update quickly because of mountains of Phsyc and English coursework. Thoughts are in << >>



After giving each other more than a few happies – Willow and Tara lay in bed, enjoying their familiar snuggle routine. It was ten-thirty and they half listened to students milling around outside, since it was a Saturday, they didn’t have to go to class. Tara sighed contented, but she could sense Willow was still tense after what had happened the day before.



“You okay baby?” Tara whispered to the red head.



“Hmm, yeah I’m fine.” Willow answered distractedly.



“What’s the matter?” Tara asked worriedly.



“I just…I feel bad for doubting you.” Willow sat up to look at Tara, “I shouldn’t have been so stupid.”



Tara placed her hand on the girl’s back to comfort her, “Willow its okay really. You were just worried; I get worried too when some girl eyes you up. But, we can trust each other now okay. We can tell each other anything.”



Willow smiled then kissed her girlfriend softly. Willow was going to pull back when Tara used her hand on the redhead’s back to pull Willow closer. Their mouths opened and the kiss became more passionate. Willow ran her hand up the blonde’s arms and entwined her fingers with Tara’s. Tara moved so that she was positioned on top of Willow. Willow moaned when she felt Tara’s firm thigh between her legs. Tara began kissing her way down the red head when the phone rang.



Willow moaned irritated, “Why is this always happening to me!?”



Tara didn’t stop what she was doing, “Let it ring!”



Willow agreed but when the phone didn’t stop ringing she said through gasps, “Tara….not that I want you to stop….but…maybe…..Buffy….demons….danger….”



Tara groaned and reached over to answer the phone, “Hello?”



“Hey Tara? It’s Sam.”



Tara sat up on her knees, much to the disappointment of Willow.



“Oh hey.”



“Hey, I was just phoning to see if you still wanted to come over today…and talk….you know about the thing?”



“Oh…well could I meet you tonight?”



“Sure.”



“Okay I’ll see you then, bye.”



“Bye Tara.”



Tara hung up the phone then smiled at the flushed and annoyed red head beneath her.



“Who was that?”



“That was um, one of my friends from my Greek Art class, he needs some help tonight because he missed some work.”



“What? But your helping Xander today too and since I wasn’t going to see you most the day, I was going to take you out for dinner tonight!” Willow said hopelessly.



Tara smiled then kissed her lover on the forehead, “Well we can get something after I get back from Xander’s, I’ll be back about five.”



“But I wanted it to be all romantic and stuff. Hey, maybe we can go for a picnic!”



“Um, it’s raining sweetie.”



“Damn, oh wait! I have an idea! Meet me here after you get back from helping Xander, okay?



“Okay, I promise this wont happen again sweetie!”



Tara started moving her hands up Willows ribcage, “Hmmm well, I guess you can be forgiven this one time.” Willow gasped when Tara’s hands reached their destination, “On seconds thought Tara…maybe you should make it up to me!” Those where the last coherent words that left Willow’s mouth for the next two hours.



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Tara was brushing her long blonde hair whilst Willow smiled adoringly at her. Tara saw Willow watching her in the mirror and turned to face her.



“What you looking at?” she said jokingly.



“Its no big, just the most beautiful woman in the world.”



“Wow, that’s exactly what I’m looking at.”



Willow blushed and Tara grabbed her boots and pulled them on.



“So what time do you think you’ll be back from Xander’s?” Willow asked.



“About five. You sure you don’t want to come with me?” Tara asked with a hopeful smile.



“I can’t I have things to do! Buffy will be there so you won’t be lumbered with Xander and Anya’s meaningful conversations!” Willow said sarcastically.



“What exactly am I helping with again?”



“Xander got one of those new energy bars in and he’s trying to sell them off. He figures if he actually advertises this time that it might go better. Basically he needs someone who can actually draw to help him make some posters and stuff. I kinda told him bout your arty-ness.”



Tara looked at her girlfriend in mock anger, “Thanks for that.”



Tara stood to pull on her jacket; Willow got up to button it for her. Tara was touched by Willow’s action, so simple, but so full of love. “Well it will give you a chance to get to know the gang. I don’t want them to see you as my girlfriend. I want them to see you, and know WHY you’re my girlfriend.”



Tara smiled then kissed Willow briefly, “You always get out of trouble!” she laughed.



* * * * * * *



Willow triple checked that everything was perfect. << Why am I so nervous, Tara would love anything I organised for her! But, I want this to be extra special. >> Willow was trying various ways to sit when she heard a click from the door signifying that Tara was about to come in. Willow felt her heart race at a million miles an hour. Tara came in looking weary; she closed the door behind her then turned round and stood opened mouthed in awe.



Willow had hung fairy lights from the roof. Rose petals were scattered round a picnic blanket where a picnic basket lay with a bottle of champagne and two glasses. But the best thing about all of this, was Willow who was wearing a knee length red dress and looking more gorgeous than Tara thought possible.



Tara dropped her bag on the floor then opened and closed her mouth several times, trying to regain the power of speech. Willow smiled at Tara’s reaction then slowly walked over to Tara. She ran her hands through her blonde hair and kissed her lovingly. The kiss took Tara’s breath away, “Wow.”



“Do you like?” Willow asked whilst moving her hands down to rest on Tara’s hips.



“Willow, I more than like. This is, wow, thank you so much.”



“Well I wanted to give you a real picnic under the stars.”



“This is just as good, better even. I love you so much.” Tara said.



“I love you too.”



They stood for a while simply staring into each other’s eyes until Tara’s growling stomach broke the silence, “Hmm, guess I am hungrier than I thought.” Tara blushed.



Willow laughed, “Let’s eat then, that’s what people usually do on picnics right?” she joked.



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After a delicious meal, and an even better desert that consisted of exotic fruit, which they fed to one another seductively, Willow and Tara were in full raging hormone mode. Willow was sitting on Tara’s lap with her arms wrapped round the blonde’s neck, kissing her with undisguised hunger.



Tara pushed everything off the picnic blanket and lay Willow down on it. Willow moaned as Tara bit and sucked on her neck and moved up to her jaw and finally to her eager lips again. Tara ran her hand up Willow’s leg, gently stroking the back of her silky thigh. She had started to move it under her skirt when they were by the reminder alarm on Tara’s mobile.



“God damn!” Willow shouted, “De ja vu sucks!!”



Tara pulled her bag over and took out her phone that was flashing “Meet Sam” she was ten minutes late. She had set the reminder just incase things got a little heated with Willow and she got caught up in the moment, “I’m sorry baby. I really don’t want to but I have to go now.”



“Nooo! Do you know how frustrating this is! Frustration is never a good thing, it leads to one pissed off Willow!” Willow said.



Tara smiled at her hormonally charged girlfriend, “I know, I hate it too, but I have to go. I’ll be back as soon as I can.” Tara got up and grabbed her bag. Willow sat up as Tara stepped halfway out the door, “I love you, remember that.”



Willow smiled, “I love you too.”



Tara left the dorm and Willow let out a big sigh and began to clear up.



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Willow brushed her teeth whilst the song Macho Man was stuck in her head. She was very chirpy, despite being extremely sexually frustrated! Things with Tara were sorted now, even though she still hated herself for doubting Tara in the first place. It was hard for her though, since Oz she had been paranoid about being hurt and couldn’t fathom why someone like Tara would ever want to be with Willow.



Willow finished brushing her teeth and stepped out of the bathroom. She made her way across the hall and was halfway through her door when she heard a familiar voice. She turned her head and saw Tara at the end of the hall…hugging Sam. << Ok no paranoia…could have bumped into her in the hall! >> Despite herself, Willow listened into the conversation.



“Thanks for tonight.” Tara said.



“Anytime.” Sam said before walking away.



Willow quickly ran into the dorm and shut the door before Tara could notice her. Willow had just jumped under the covers and put her innocent face on when Tara entered, “Hey sweetie.” Tara said.



“Hey.” Willow said.



Tara began to undress and change into her pyjamas. Willow’s brain was hurting << I should trust Tara, but why was she at Sam’s tonight? Why didn’t she tell me she was going to see her? >>



Tara crawled under the covers and nested her head in Willow’s chest, “Hmmm, I missed you.”



“How was study session?” Willow asked.



“It was okay he um, knew most of the stuff so I only need to um, help him once more again tomorrow night.” Tara answered guiltily.



“I’m loosing you again huh?” Willow asked, but held a different meaning to what she was saying.



“Just one more night.” Tara said then kissed Willow on the cheek and drifted off to sleep.



TBC

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[witchbitchwillow]

great update my lovely!!



even with the little personal touches in there lol. but i'll never tell' what they are lol.



more soon please, coz you love me sooo much and wouldnt want to disapoint. big bro back omn now,



speak to u later x x x x

*thats me as a vampire im so evil and skanky and i think im kinda gay*

*no candles? well i brought one its extra flamey!*

[pikescoob]

uh oh....why is Tara lying about where she's going? That doesn't sound good.....can't wait to see where that leads.



And the dancing on the table thing? I actually know all about that....and my friends won't ever let me live it down....heh.



--Michelle

[Thanatopsis]

What's Tara doing lying to Willow? That just can't be a good thing. Should be interesting.

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Uh, um... various sounds of
hesitation...

[Lynz]

Oh no poor Willow! I hope Tara's got a good reason.Hey i hope all goes well with the physics, i totally understand (did higher phys.) although didnt actually learn from the mental toture it caused, and am still doin it at uni(d'oh!)

anyway back to the point great update, hope they get things cleared up with no/minimum fights, cos fights= .

And if you ever want to ask me anything about physics give me a shout. I probably won't be able to help, but at least you can laugh at me!



Lynz

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Edited by: Lynz at: 6/22/02 4:42:14 pm

[AmberBensonRockzMyWorld]

Awsome update. Poor, Poor Willow. I'm sure Tara has a good reason for doing that, Well I hope so anyway. I can't wait to read the next chapter. Hurry please. You totally Rock. This fic Kicks.

Much Love,

Lisa

This is our Last Embrace, Must I dream and Always see your face.~ Jeff Buckley "Last goodbye"

[The Rose24]

Okay, What is going on?

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[fidds]

great update!

Tara lying? that can't be good



can't wait for the next update



*Hannah*

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I just needed someone to talk to, you were just too busy with yourself, you were never there for me to express how i felt ,i just stuffed it down- *STAIND -FADE*

[willntlover]

I have a pretty good idea of why Tara is lying. I just hope i am right Enjoying this fic so much



-Will

"Hear that baby? You're my always."

"well, you know, when you play a lesbian witch you've gotta get killed in this fun kind of exciting way, so the heart was the way to go..."

"we have the most amazing fans though they LOVE us."

[ally02]

Ellie - I'll never tell la la la la please dont other wise I will die of embarrasment I will write more soon but the truth is bit far away....he he he I'm so evil and skanky...and I know im kinda gay!



Michelle - Trying my hardest not to reveal anything! Hmm I dont think the whole pub will let me live down my table dancing experiences...and the pub owner because I owe him a new table!



Thanatopsis - Nope lying is never a good thing and I'm hoping that it will be very interesting...but expect lots of cliffhangers! lol



Lynz - Argh you must be insane doing it at Uni! Glad you liked the update and things will be come clearer in time promise. Thanks for the help offer...hmmm I have this homework I need done for 2moro... lol would I do that to you?



Lisa - There will be a reason at the end....might not be a good one but it will be a reason he he. I will work my ass of to get the next chapter done...once I get out of my PJ's



The Rose24 - I'm not saying a word....



Hannah - Glad you liked the update. Lying is not of the good...but all will become clear in time dont worry.



Will - You have a theory...it could be bunnies!! lol Well if you are right I will be quite afraid, because it was made up in my insane brain, and then you would be just as insane as me!! Anyway...glad you're enjoying this fic.



Thanks to everyone for reading and for the feedback. Sorry I have given u a noodle scratcher here! lol More soon I promise.



love Aly xxxxxxxxx

You cannot have more catnip! You have a catnip problem!